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im imagining my family. i can't bear to see their faces at their worst. i never wanted to see ned without her. i can't even begin to comprehend what he must be feeling right now. certain family members stick out like that.
this is so hard to handle. both in so many months. both. the only two grandparents i've ever known and had. i didn't know her as well as my siblings did, because she seemed to favor me less. that won't leave my head. about how i loved her so much and i know she loved me, but i hate knowing that i never got my opportunity to show her that i've become something more. someone of better respectability. i'm glad she saw the photos.
my grandmother still constantly rings in my head. it's been nearly impossible to even begin to get over that in any way. and now this. two blows to inside. too close this time.
she wanted a view of the ocean from her bathtub. and she got it.
that house is a form of salvation on earth. secluded and surrounded by everything beautiful, with her inside.
i'm glad i always said "i love you".
this is so hard to handle. both in so many months. both. the only two grandparents i've ever known and had. i didn't know her as well as my siblings did, because she seemed to favor me less. that won't leave my head. about how i loved her so much and i know she loved me, but i hate knowing that i never got my opportunity to show her that i've become something more. someone of better respectability. i'm glad she saw the photos.
my grandmother still constantly rings in my head. it's been nearly impossible to even begin to get over that in any way. and now this. two blows to inside. too close this time.
she wanted a view of the ocean from her bathtub. and she got it.
that house is a form of salvation on earth. secluded and surrounded by everything beautiful, with her inside.
i'm glad i always said "i love you".