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why should one trust when they've been bitten? the opportunity for something else? other than themselves? greater? if there is nothing greather than themselves what good is anyone else? what good is good? and if one is just sleeping, waiting, seeking, how do they know when they've awakened? when the dream is reality? with belief? with desire? if belief creates perception and desire influences belief, what is this world but a collective of desires?
[21:06] "a collective of"
[21:08] if i believed what i say. then it would cost me nothing to cross all of 7 feet and pull a steel trigger. not to prove. but to discover. if there is nothing else. or if there is more. isn't that what drives humanity? and what is humanity at all but a label we've adopted..accepted...created and acknowledged as one?
[21:08] * spewk exhales sharply and twitches
[21:10] Humanity is a term too few even seek to consider, let alone define for themselves. Those who do, learn about it in themselves. As to anything greater than ourselves, I say, look up. The incredible universe, reality all around us to be discovered and to reach a place you can say, "This is mine," in.
who's to say i didn't look up? that i didn't say "i want more. i want to feel there is more. i want a purpose. i want someone to see that purpose with. but ultimately there is only me. i create. and there is only you. you create. you need trials to feel accomplished. i need others to feel fulfilled. what is there but the individual that creates what life is and meant to be? and if that's all there is then..well, that's all there is. and we can be lost and found as we are and desire to be and it just never ends. and there is nothing else.
sometimes i wish for a god that is able to save me. to swoop down out of the heavens and say "that's enough." but i know i am god. and you're god. and we're all gods capable of creating our own existence. i used to be amazed at a book called "moonchild." that we all chose and fought and competed to be born to a certain entity for a certain purpose..and i'm still not entirely sure that's wrong. but on another axis i'm completely sure and here i only suspect. and to suspect seems to be a terrible sin. isn't that what we're told? that we should believe and there should be no room for doubt? well what if doubt is all we have? all we're born to? and certainty is only something we create, we look up to in our lives of mass confusion? of everything but the opposite of certainty which we're told is only uncertainty? what if everything we're told is wrong, just something meant to help us on our way, or something we felt we needed to learn, some trial, some pain, some death...of ourselves. of something we thought was another but really, when it comes down to it, is ourselves. if we are everything...we're connected...then every death is really a small death of a part of us. of something we needed...or didn't need.... or just again something we needed to learn or experience to complete what we are..or feel we need to be...or even think. for thinking...really...knowledge...experience...is all the same. perception...goals...life...it's no different.
we're all fucked.
[21:06] "a collective of"
[21:08] if i believed what i say. then it would cost me nothing to cross all of 7 feet and pull a steel trigger. not to prove. but to discover. if there is nothing else. or if there is more. isn't that what drives humanity? and what is humanity at all but a label we've adopted..accepted...created and acknowledged as one?
[21:08] * spewk exhales sharply and twitches
[21:10] Humanity is a term too few even seek to consider, let alone define for themselves. Those who do, learn about it in themselves. As to anything greater than ourselves, I say, look up. The incredible universe, reality all around us to be discovered and to reach a place you can say, "This is mine," in.
who's to say i didn't look up? that i didn't say "i want more. i want to feel there is more. i want a purpose. i want someone to see that purpose with. but ultimately there is only me. i create. and there is only you. you create. you need trials to feel accomplished. i need others to feel fulfilled. what is there but the individual that creates what life is and meant to be? and if that's all there is then..well, that's all there is. and we can be lost and found as we are and desire to be and it just never ends. and there is nothing else.
sometimes i wish for a god that is able to save me. to swoop down out of the heavens and say "that's enough." but i know i am god. and you're god. and we're all gods capable of creating our own existence. i used to be amazed at a book called "moonchild." that we all chose and fought and competed to be born to a certain entity for a certain purpose..and i'm still not entirely sure that's wrong. but on another axis i'm completely sure and here i only suspect. and to suspect seems to be a terrible sin. isn't that what we're told? that we should believe and there should be no room for doubt? well what if doubt is all we have? all we're born to? and certainty is only something we create, we look up to in our lives of mass confusion? of everything but the opposite of certainty which we're told is only uncertainty? what if everything we're told is wrong, just something meant to help us on our way, or something we felt we needed to learn, some trial, some pain, some death...of ourselves. of something we thought was another but really, when it comes down to it, is ourselves. if we are everything...we're connected...then every death is really a small death of a part of us. of something we needed...or didn't need.... or just again something we needed to learn or experience to complete what we are..or feel we need to be...or even think. for thinking...really...knowledge...experience...is all the same. perception...goals...life...it's no different.
we're all fucked.