Let's talk about sex...
okay let's not. let's talk about how whenever things get good my life slowly goes down the shit hole. yes i am using very bad language lately. i dont care.
let's talk about how i am fucking up friendships like nobody's business b/c i can't get my act together. or how i look to my friends for advice but it doesn't work because i think my problems are so much bigger than they can handle. they're bigger than i can handle.
i need to stop caring so much about what other ppl think and stop wanting to make everyone like me. problem is, i don't know how. i don't know how i ended up caring about people more than they care about me. it's really painful. it's like i want to be best friends with everyone, to have all of my friends be close ones. but that's so unrealistic. still, i want it.
i want to stop crying at stupid things. i want to stop ignoring people that really do care about me. i need to not worry about who wants to be my friend and who doesn't.
it's. so. hard.
in other news, thanks to katie. as she said, we always have great conversations.
Katia872 (9:07:54 PM): do jumping jacks
Chiquitashanana (9:08:37 PM): ok
Katia872 (9:08:44 PM): THEN
Katia872 (9:08:50 PM): go get HI-C
Katia872 (9:09:10 PM): and drink it, while your left foot in in a cold thing of water
Katia872 (9:09:18 PM): and your right foot is in a hot thing of water
Katia872 (9:09:33 PM): and flap your arms like wings
Katia872 (9:09:43 PM): and then do it again but video tape it for me
Chiquitashanana (9:10:02 PM): okay
Katia872 (9:10:22 PM): hott
also. you no call me. me no likey.
let's talk about how i am fucking up friendships like nobody's business b/c i can't get my act together. or how i look to my friends for advice but it doesn't work because i think my problems are so much bigger than they can handle. they're bigger than i can handle.
i need to stop caring so much about what other ppl think and stop wanting to make everyone like me. problem is, i don't know how. i don't know how i ended up caring about people more than they care about me. it's really painful. it's like i want to be best friends with everyone, to have all of my friends be close ones. but that's so unrealistic. still, i want it.
i want to stop crying at stupid things. i want to stop ignoring people that really do care about me. i need to not worry about who wants to be my friend and who doesn't.
it's. so. hard.
in other news, thanks to katie. as she said, we always have great conversations.
Katia872 (9:07:54 PM): do jumping jacks
Chiquitashanana (9:08:37 PM): ok
Katia872 (9:08:44 PM): THEN
Katia872 (9:08:50 PM): go get HI-C
Katia872 (9:09:10 PM): and drink it, while your left foot in in a cold thing of water
Katia872 (9:09:18 PM): and your right foot is in a hot thing of water
Katia872 (9:09:33 PM): and flap your arms like wings
Katia872 (9:09:43 PM): and then do it again but video tape it for me
Chiquitashanana (9:10:02 PM): okay
Katia872 (9:10:22 PM): hott
also. you no call me. me no likey.