I'm the CEO
Some things I think:
I'm an awesome parent. I think this because my child is an awesome child and he must be the product of parenting, right? I've heard parents say they thought they were perfect parents until they had their 2nd child and then they realized their 1st just had a naturally easy-going personality. I suspect that will happen to me.
But he is so easy going. It's not easy going, really, having a baby, but then again it is.
I also think:
My body always does other than I expect and other than I desire. I've now gained 4lbs since Keaton was born and it's driving me batty. I'm hungry all the time, though, and not willing to risk a reduced milk supply by dieting/going hungry.
The days I have filled with plans and obligations are preceded by nights of dread and yet once they're here I enjoy them, feel good about them. The days like today, days of nothing but diaper laundry and cooking and cleaning and reading to Keaton and baby yoga, are preceded by happy anticipation but inevitably I feel like a lazy loser when they're here. I enjoy them, but feel lazy with them.
And:
You really get to see who you are, and who other people are, when the chips are down.
It's hard to be honest and not worry that love will walk away.
HEB has some frozen multi-grain bread that you thaw and bake in your own oven and it's pretty heavenly.
Pain isn't as bad as fear + pain but it's still not much fun.