Thinking
This last week has been so hectic, and everything is okay now but despite my age I feel like I've hit this premature mid-life crisis. I don't know why, but I've been thinking a lot lately ever since May right after my birthday. Thinking about how I am now and goodness how I used to be a few years ago, goodness it was horrible. x_x I was so stubborn and rude. And now I'm a lot more calm and collected, and I know when I need to act mature which I'm happy about. But I still feel bad for things that I used to do. I usually don't let the past bother me, cause it's the past. And you realize what you did was wrong, but I have no idea why it's on my mind lately.
I've never done anything like majorly wrong or anything, mainly just being a rudy. But I guess it bothers me cause I don't like to be rude towards people, or sometimes something I say comes out rude and once it clicks, I feel bad for days. Keep in mind I don't cuss or anything, or I never said anything harsh to people, but I was awfully stubborn and once something bothered me or something I knew was wrong came up, I would just lash at people and start (sometimes) pointless arguments.
I guess now that it occurred to me how I was then, I'm sort of going through that phase. But I don't know, sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change what I said to people, but I know that I can't do that so all I can do is apologize and move on. I wish I didn't think so much about these things. ._. I'm glad I'm not the depressed or sad type of person cause this would have been horrible. xD Well enough of my ranting, writing it down puts my heart at ease. :)
I've never done anything like majorly wrong or anything, mainly just being a rudy. But I guess it bothers me cause I don't like to be rude towards people, or sometimes something I say comes out rude and once it clicks, I feel bad for days. Keep in mind I don't cuss or anything, or I never said anything harsh to people, but I was awfully stubborn and once something bothered me or something I knew was wrong came up, I would just lash at people and start (sometimes) pointless arguments.
I guess now that it occurred to me how I was then, I'm sort of going through that phase. But I don't know, sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change what I said to people, but I know that I can't do that so all I can do is apologize and move on. I wish I didn't think so much about these things. ._. I'm glad I'm not the depressed or sad type of person cause this would have been horrible. xD Well enough of my ranting, writing it down puts my heart at ease. :)