MaKe-Up DaY
wowwww 2 day was definatly weird. OK i amm sooo stressed out-no one can understand. Im sposed 2 have my period- i got sooo stressed that i have the cramps but...yanno the blood jus aint comin.aghh-Neways..so im dealing with alll this bullshit with alissa and ashley. Jesus, why can't people just stay outta my way? ergh-it really bugs me.
soo today was weird.did the whole school thing then naccs drove me home and her n ktj stayed @ my house 4 awhile cuz i asked them 2...devon was comin 2 get me after school and i really needed the grls ther soo it would maybe be a little more easier. Damn im luckey 2 have my grls.Neways soo we all went 2 mcdonaldsand it was soo weird...1)because just being around devon after thesepast few days...was just-idk like kinda uncomfortable and 2)bcuz ktj n naccs were bein kooky
They were making me smile....@one point naccs shoved kt out the door when she was talking on the cellie- the cell flew and kt like fell- omg laffed so hard.
After we left there..me n devon were headin back 2 his house...let me tell you- freakin silence.....which was ok cuz i was thinkin on wut we needed 2 say. OK READY WHEN WE GOT TO HIS HOUSE THEY WERE ALL WAITING 4 US IN THE VAN 2 GO 2 POLARWAVE...BUT GUESS WHO WAS IN THE FUCKIN VAN? FUCKIN ALISSA... yah i was gonna scream. Then ltr on ashley joined the bunch..jus great huh- so me n dev rode in a dif car. The crew was meeting @ the church so we could all go out 2gether...soo when we got 2 the church-devs mom was like dev go in the church n get the tickets..hes like ok..then he looked @ me and is like come with me-im like yah....so we go in the downstairs place and i jus like stood in the middle while dev went n got the tickets... he came back-and like this was gonna b like the only time we got to talk bout shyt. I couldnt stop myself i freakin sobbed...man i felt soo dum.he just kept saying sorry and that he loves me. Idk then i remmebered that my makeup was prolly gonna b running-soo i went in the bathroom n cleaned up.
-ok fast forward-
When we were @ polar wave i kept freakin seeing alissa n ashley lookin @ me- i swear i was about to push them down that hill backwards-lol..that makes me smile. I guess i was givin them some pretty nasty looks(thnx 2 tha grl tht taught me alll about giving dirty looks:-D)yah they wanted 2 run-
ltr on when dev mom was bringin me home-we sat in the back of tht van and he's like holding me and huggin me saying like
-"i swear i love you kayla"
-"Idk y i did it"
-"you mean everything to me-i cant believe i almost lost you"
-"you've had sucha impact on my life..."
all the stuff that he needed 2 say...I cried again....i couldn't stop either..i jus kept thinkin bout it-he like was hugging me so i like had my head on his shoulder when i was cryin...n at 1 point i fell asleep-i was sooo tired-but neways I really have faith that it'll never happen again-cuz he knows if it does that i'll be gone and i wont take him back-ohh man- ok i need 2 sleep its 11:30pm erz n i got school in the am.
Goodnight all-
-Shay
*devon we're going to werk thru this-
soo today was weird.did the whole school thing then naccs drove me home and her n ktj stayed @ my house 4 awhile cuz i asked them 2...devon was comin 2 get me after school and i really needed the grls ther soo it would maybe be a little more easier. Damn im luckey 2 have my grls.Neways soo we all went 2 mcdonaldsand it was soo weird...1)because just being around devon after thesepast few days...was just-idk like kinda uncomfortable and 2)bcuz ktj n naccs were bein kooky
They were making me smile....@one point naccs shoved kt out the door when she was talking on the cellie- the cell flew and kt like fell- omg laffed so hard.
After we left there..me n devon were headin back 2 his house...let me tell you- freakin silence.....which was ok cuz i was thinkin on wut we needed 2 say. OK READY WHEN WE GOT TO HIS HOUSE THEY WERE ALL WAITING 4 US IN THE VAN 2 GO 2 POLARWAVE...BUT GUESS WHO WAS IN THE FUCKIN VAN? FUCKIN ALISSA... yah i was gonna scream. Then ltr on ashley joined the bunch..jus great huh- so me n dev rode in a dif car. The crew was meeting @ the church so we could all go out 2gether...soo when we got 2 the church-devs mom was like dev go in the church n get the tickets..hes like ok..then he looked @ me and is like come with me-im like yah....so we go in the downstairs place and i jus like stood in the middle while dev went n got the tickets... he came back-and like this was gonna b like the only time we got to talk bout shyt. I couldnt stop myself i freakin sobbed...man i felt soo dum.he just kept saying sorry and that he loves me. Idk then i remmebered that my makeup was prolly gonna b running-soo i went in the bathroom n cleaned up.
-ok fast forward-
When we were @ polar wave i kept freakin seeing alissa n ashley lookin @ me- i swear i was about to push them down that hill backwards-lol..that makes me smile. I guess i was givin them some pretty nasty looks(thnx 2 tha grl tht taught me alll about giving dirty looks:-D)yah they wanted 2 run-
ltr on when dev mom was bringin me home-we sat in the back of tht van and he's like holding me and huggin me saying like
-"i swear i love you kayla"
-"Idk y i did it"
-"you mean everything to me-i cant believe i almost lost you"
-"you've had sucha impact on my life..."
all the stuff that he needed 2 say...I cried again....i couldn't stop either..i jus kept thinkin bout it-he like was hugging me so i like had my head on his shoulder when i was cryin...n at 1 point i fell asleep-i was sooo tired-but neways I really have faith that it'll never happen again-cuz he knows if it does that i'll be gone and i wont take him back-ohh man- ok i need 2 sleep its 11:30pm erz n i got school in the am.
Goodnight all-
-Shay
*devon we're going to werk thru this-