Pain

[shaych850]

I lost someone today....someone that I cared about a lot....and even though we broke up....I cared about him a great deal....see the thing is....we broke up mostly....(and I haven't uttered this until now)....we broke up because he pushed me away...he was sick....and he knew it....you see....he had a bad heart....and it kept getting worse....he had a bad heart from birth....and even though he had this problem for a long time....I knew he had this problem when we first started dating...and I cared about him anyway....it didn't matter so much to me....but apparently to him....he didn't see the use in us being together....so when we broke up....I shrugged it off...and thought...Fine....you don't want us to be together....then your loss.....and that worked for me for a long time...until today....and now....that he's gone....that he passed away....I am full of hurt and regret....I am full of confusion....

And I hurt.....I hurt so much.....it so aches.....

May gods bless you Andrew....and I'm sorry....I'm so sorry....

Kevin

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