Sick
I'm so sick and tired of working. I'm burnt out. I know ya'll are like "you have to work the rest of your life..and you're burnt out"...but I am burnt out when my only day off..i'm lonely..and then i fight with russell after i look forward to seeing him ALL day. And then we don't end up spending any time together today like he promised me. I miss him so much..i just looked forward to seeing him so much..and i have hardly seen him at all. And my day off sucked!
So this week I'm going to try to get some people to take my shifts because i just need some time off. I am the most worked hostess..cause I guess I am head hostess..and i'm just sick of it.
To tell you the truth i'm just sick of living. I feel like all the people that I care about could really care less about me.
I really need some friends. I need a friend with a boyfriend. I love all my single friends, but they are really hard to relate too. I want to hang out and do girl stuff..when a lot of their priority is going out and partying to find a guy...and that's just not what I want to do. I miss the days when all that mattered was us girls. I hated when guys came into the picture.
I'm sick of life. I'm just ready to do something else instead of sit on my ass all day with nothing to do.
Work sucks by the way. One hostess got FIRED so the managers bugged me to death about working her schedule. So they took my days off that I had..and filled them with her work day. They had me working today on my only day off..but i got someone to do it for me. There is no way i'm fixing to work 11 days in a row...i don't get paid enough.
Well I'm just fucking tired..might as well go to bed and go to work all over again. I hate working weekends..I have to close on saturday and then open bright and early on sunday. It's ridiculous.
So this week I'm going to try to get some people to take my shifts because i just need some time off. I am the most worked hostess..cause I guess I am head hostess..and i'm just sick of it.
To tell you the truth i'm just sick of living. I feel like all the people that I care about could really care less about me.
I really need some friends. I need a friend with a boyfriend. I love all my single friends, but they are really hard to relate too. I want to hang out and do girl stuff..when a lot of their priority is going out and partying to find a guy...and that's just not what I want to do. I miss the days when all that mattered was us girls. I hated when guys came into the picture.
I'm sick of life. I'm just ready to do something else instead of sit on my ass all day with nothing to do.
Work sucks by the way. One hostess got FIRED so the managers bugged me to death about working her schedule. So they took my days off that I had..and filled them with her work day. They had me working today on my only day off..but i got someone to do it for me. There is no way i'm fixing to work 11 days in a row...i don't get paid enough.
Well I'm just fucking tired..might as well go to bed and go to work all over again. I hate working weekends..I have to close on saturday and then open bright and early on sunday. It's ridiculous.