Hey you.
Leave me alone.
I want ...to be...alone.
No one cares about me...I can't wait to get out of this stupid town and get on with my life.
I hope in college i will make actual friends...a GIRL friend. (not lesbian)
This girl i thought was my friend...only uses me for a punching bag. And i hate it. I take so much of her crap..and she turns her whole family against me. They ALL treat me like i'm a rude monster, but in fact SHE is the monster.
I just don't get it.
I can't ever form my feelings into words either...so i always just lose the argument.
Though anyone i talk to..believes she is awful to me, and they don't know why i talk to her.
Honestly i have no idea. Besides the fact that i DO love her as a friend. I love when we're together...but...she's a real bitch apart.
I can't explain to you in more detail...because my mind is retarded and just can't think of anything to say at 2 a.m But yea...
I wish she'd treat me with respect...and kindness...
thats all i'm asking for. All the put downs...and the deviousness. And bitchyness...just PISSES me the fuck off.
I really just want to stop talking to her because i know she'll do the same shit over and over again. And i don't deserve to be treated like that.
It's not fair.
But yet i don't want to stop because she is my friend on a certain level...and if i'd lose her then i'd have NO one. I mean NO one. (Oh btw, this is the part where she'd come in all bitchy and be like "SHE HAS FRIENDS!!! SHE HAS SAM AND BEN!! SHE WAS WITH THEM THE OTHER DAY! *BITCH BITCH BITCH*. And then i'd tell her they aren't friends. Because..they aren't. They are guys that i talk to when i have nothing to do out in this damn cornfield called Iowa. SO SHUT UP AND GROW UPPPPPPPPP. Jesus Christ. that pisses me off. ANYWAY)
And sometimes I think being treated like shit is better than being so alone you wanna scratch your eyeballs out.
Gah she just DRIVES ME INSANE AND IDK WHAT TO DO WITH HER!
I need her in my life...but not her fucking disrespect and rudeness. She's unbelievably awful. No one would put up with this. I wish someone would do it to her. See how she likes it.
She needs to be put in her place by someone other than me. Because obviously that doesn't work.
She argues with me until she thinks she's won, and then she'll block me and go run off to her mommy. The gossip duo.
ANYWAY, I'M PISSED OFF AND GOING TO BED.
I can't think of anything else at 2:30 am....
i will be back though.
I want ...to be...alone.
No one cares about me...I can't wait to get out of this stupid town and get on with my life.
I hope in college i will make actual friends...a GIRL friend. (not lesbian)
This girl i thought was my friend...only uses me for a punching bag. And i hate it. I take so much of her crap..and she turns her whole family against me. They ALL treat me like i'm a rude monster, but in fact SHE is the monster.
I just don't get it.
I can't ever form my feelings into words either...so i always just lose the argument.
Though anyone i talk to..believes she is awful to me, and they don't know why i talk to her.
Honestly i have no idea. Besides the fact that i DO love her as a friend. I love when we're together...but...she's a real bitch apart.
I can't explain to you in more detail...because my mind is retarded and just can't think of anything to say at 2 a.m But yea...
I wish she'd treat me with respect...and kindness...
thats all i'm asking for. All the put downs...and the deviousness. And bitchyness...just PISSES me the fuck off.
I really just want to stop talking to her because i know she'll do the same shit over and over again. And i don't deserve to be treated like that.
It's not fair.
But yet i don't want to stop because she is my friend on a certain level...and if i'd lose her then i'd have NO one. I mean NO one. (Oh btw, this is the part where she'd come in all bitchy and be like "SHE HAS FRIENDS!!! SHE HAS SAM AND BEN!! SHE WAS WITH THEM THE OTHER DAY! *BITCH BITCH BITCH*. And then i'd tell her they aren't friends. Because..they aren't. They are guys that i talk to when i have nothing to do out in this damn cornfield called Iowa. SO SHUT UP AND GROW UPPPPPPPPP. Jesus Christ. that pisses me off. ANYWAY)
And sometimes I think being treated like shit is better than being so alone you wanna scratch your eyeballs out.
Gah she just DRIVES ME INSANE AND IDK WHAT TO DO WITH HER!
I need her in my life...but not her fucking disrespect and rudeness. She's unbelievably awful. No one would put up with this. I wish someone would do it to her. See how she likes it.
She needs to be put in her place by someone other than me. Because obviously that doesn't work.
She argues with me until she thinks she's won, and then she'll block me and go run off to her mommy. The gossip duo.
ANYWAY, I'M PISSED OFF AND GOING TO BED.
I can't think of anything else at 2:30 am....
i will be back though.