ehhhh
A lot of people have been asking me if I'm okay lately.
I guess I'm not... I'm just not happy... I haven't been in a good mood, I'm stressed, plus this whole thing with my cousin didn't help. (he is much better by the way, I'm glad he pulled thru so far).
I broke down in practice the other day.. I'm just sick of shit.. and people don't help. But Whit tried to talk to me.. and I wouldn't answer her.. i was just like.. I'm fine, she asked me a buncha of stuff and I just said "No" to everything. But I was crying. So it was obvious. I duno its just everything lately.
And I can't stop thinking about him... We talked, he makes me so happy. I asked him if he could be anywhere, where he would be. He said "With you"... that was the best feeling ever guys.. and I told him I felt the same way about him... But he lives so far. :-X . See life is crap, never goes my way.. :( whatever.
So to all the people who are asking me if I'm okay.. No I'm not.. but i can't describe it... and most likely I don't want to either... so I'm sorry if it seems like i'm being mean, but i duno how to explain whats wrong, So I'm saying I'm fine..
plus people can't see pase the smiles.. so its okay anyways.
*Shay_B*
I'll never be wanted, I'll never be needed, I'll never be beautiful, I'll never be loved, I'll never be good enough... I'll simply never be.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.
My weakness is, That I care too much.
The scars remind us, that the past is real.
I tear my heart open, just to fell.