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so.
apparently i'm in a writing mood lately. i don't really know why. although it probably has a lot to do with the fact that i don't have much to do this semester and i have a lot of free time on my hands.
i have a lot on my mind and i can't really explain it. is it normal to think about almost every aspect of your life right before you through a major turning point in your life? do other people get all weird and contemplative right before graduation or is it just me? i keep thinking about the people in my life, the relationships i have...things like that. how many of these people am i still going to be friends with in 5 years? i mean, just from freshman year, i've already grown apart from some people. and found that we're just not friends anymore. i can only imagine that will become more frequent once i'm gone from college and in the work force. and that thought doesn't make me happy. i really like the people i'm friends with now. or maybe i'm just underestimating the bond i have with people. i mean, i've always been really good at keeping in touch with people. i feel pretty horrible that it sounds like i'm saying i'm just going to stop being friends with people. but it's not on purpose. i don't sit back and go "you know, i think i'm just going to stop being friends with her/him." we just kind of grow apart, or our relationship just becomes too drama-y for something not on television. as bad as that may sound. i've also noticed that a lot of people have been disappointing me lately. and granted, i may have standards that are a little too high when it comes to my friends. but i don't know. i've been screwed over a lot and besides, my friends are pretty much all i've ever had. i was never the type of person who confides in her family...i always went to my friends with things. and if you're wondering if YOU are disappointing me, the answer is probably yes. :) just kidding! i like to make people paranoid. but yes, i've been feeling disappointed a lot lately. eh, i probably just think too much. i've been told that. a lot. and if you read this and decide to ask me if it's about you and i say no, please just accept that answer. that is all for now.
'golden girls' is an awesome show. i'm feeling...magenta. man, i'm a nerd. mama strine's birthday is saturday. and so is casey's. and i think there's a party saturday so i'm looking forward to that. mary said she'd try to come up, but she also said she probably won't be able to. totally understandable. but it'd still be fun if she was here. either way, she'll be up here the weekend after my birthday and i'm sure that will be crazy. and hopefully bryan will be able to make it. and as far as i know, ariel is supposed to come visit for spring break. unless plans have changed. it should be a good last semester. at least it's looking that way. and hopefully that's the way it'll stay.
deuce deuce.
apparently i'm in a writing mood lately. i don't really know why. although it probably has a lot to do with the fact that i don't have much to do this semester and i have a lot of free time on my hands.
i have a lot on my mind and i can't really explain it. is it normal to think about almost every aspect of your life right before you through a major turning point in your life? do other people get all weird and contemplative right before graduation or is it just me? i keep thinking about the people in my life, the relationships i have...things like that. how many of these people am i still going to be friends with in 5 years? i mean, just from freshman year, i've already grown apart from some people. and found that we're just not friends anymore. i can only imagine that will become more frequent once i'm gone from college and in the work force. and that thought doesn't make me happy. i really like the people i'm friends with now. or maybe i'm just underestimating the bond i have with people. i mean, i've always been really good at keeping in touch with people. i feel pretty horrible that it sounds like i'm saying i'm just going to stop being friends with people. but it's not on purpose. i don't sit back and go "you know, i think i'm just going to stop being friends with her/him." we just kind of grow apart, or our relationship just becomes too drama-y for something not on television. as bad as that may sound. i've also noticed that a lot of people have been disappointing me lately. and granted, i may have standards that are a little too high when it comes to my friends. but i don't know. i've been screwed over a lot and besides, my friends are pretty much all i've ever had. i was never the type of person who confides in her family...i always went to my friends with things. and if you're wondering if YOU are disappointing me, the answer is probably yes. :) just kidding! i like to make people paranoid. but yes, i've been feeling disappointed a lot lately. eh, i probably just think too much. i've been told that. a lot. and if you read this and decide to ask me if it's about you and i say no, please just accept that answer. that is all for now.
'golden girls' is an awesome show. i'm feeling...magenta. man, i'm a nerd. mama strine's birthday is saturday. and so is casey's. and i think there's a party saturday so i'm looking forward to that. mary said she'd try to come up, but she also said she probably won't be able to. totally understandable. but it'd still be fun if she was here. either way, she'll be up here the weekend after my birthday and i'm sure that will be crazy. and hopefully bryan will be able to make it. and as far as i know, ariel is supposed to come visit for spring break. unless plans have changed. it should be a good last semester. at least it's looking that way. and hopefully that's the way it'll stay.
deuce deuce.