wish i could stop all these thoughts in my head...
i totally quoted a jessica simpson song for my subject line, what a loser i am. two entries in one day...wow, that's unusual. for summer at least.
i don't really know why i'm updating again, i've just been thinking about a lot of stuff. i don't know how much i really want to say here where the world can read it. but then again, who am i kidding, the world doesn't read this. maybe just ReL, mary, and occasionally tony. i guess that's MY world though. i've just had these really strong "change" feelings lately. like i want to change my clothes, my hair, my make up, just a lot of superficial stuff. but then again i don't know what i'd do to my hair, stupid curls are hard to do things with sometimes. if you have any suggestions for a super cute haircut i could get, let me know. i'm way overdue for a new look.
i also actually have some deeper, emotional feelings too, but those are a little too personal for me to write here at the moment. not that i don't trust you guys, but i've never been that much of an open book about my feelings anyway, and i really don't feel like starting now. i'm probably just a mess because it's my last year of school and i have to do the whole real world thing in 9 months. i've been thinking about it a lot and it pretty much scares the crap out of me. i know that once i do it and it's over, it won't be as horrible as i'm making it in my mind right now, but that doesn't make me feel any better at the moment. right now i'm just stressed and worried about the whole thing. am i ready to be a grown up? i don't know...i don't feel like i am. wasn't i just 15 screaming with my friends at a backstreet boys concert and acting like a total idiot? or dancing around with my friends with mud masks on our faces and singing to britney spears while playing a ukulele? haha both those examples make my music taste look horrible. suddenly i'm 21 and a senior in college, needing to go on interviews and find a real job. like an adult. before i know it my friends will be graduating, getting married, having babies...although some of that has already happened. i love you mary! :)
blah, anyway, that wasn't everything i've been worried about, but i figure that's enough personal detail for the time being. the rest of it is just stupid self esteem stuff and you'll tell me to get over myself because i'm wonderful because you're my friends. and i love you all to pieces for that. well children, i'm gonna go chillax for a while, i've been tired all day so i might try to go to bed early. i'm doing some shopping this week...before my kohl's coupons expire. if anyone wants to tag along and be my opinion person, let me know. have a great night everyone. much love.
deuce deuce playas.
i don't really know why i'm updating again, i've just been thinking about a lot of stuff. i don't know how much i really want to say here where the world can read it. but then again, who am i kidding, the world doesn't read this. maybe just ReL, mary, and occasionally tony. i guess that's MY world though. i've just had these really strong "change" feelings lately. like i want to change my clothes, my hair, my make up, just a lot of superficial stuff. but then again i don't know what i'd do to my hair, stupid curls are hard to do things with sometimes. if you have any suggestions for a super cute haircut i could get, let me know. i'm way overdue for a new look.
i also actually have some deeper, emotional feelings too, but those are a little too personal for me to write here at the moment. not that i don't trust you guys, but i've never been that much of an open book about my feelings anyway, and i really don't feel like starting now. i'm probably just a mess because it's my last year of school and i have to do the whole real world thing in 9 months. i've been thinking about it a lot and it pretty much scares the crap out of me. i know that once i do it and it's over, it won't be as horrible as i'm making it in my mind right now, but that doesn't make me feel any better at the moment. right now i'm just stressed and worried about the whole thing. am i ready to be a grown up? i don't know...i don't feel like i am. wasn't i just 15 screaming with my friends at a backstreet boys concert and acting like a total idiot? or dancing around with my friends with mud masks on our faces and singing to britney spears while playing a ukulele? haha both those examples make my music taste look horrible. suddenly i'm 21 and a senior in college, needing to go on interviews and find a real job. like an adult. before i know it my friends will be graduating, getting married, having babies...although some of that has already happened. i love you mary! :)
blah, anyway, that wasn't everything i've been worried about, but i figure that's enough personal detail for the time being. the rest of it is just stupid self esteem stuff and you'll tell me to get over myself because i'm wonderful because you're my friends. and i love you all to pieces for that. well children, i'm gonna go chillax for a while, i've been tired all day so i might try to go to bed early. i'm doing some shopping this week...before my kohl's coupons expire. if anyone wants to tag along and be my opinion person, let me know. have a great night everyone. much love.
deuce deuce playas.