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[shawty2069]

blah i feel like shit.. i started writtin a poem today- but my thoughts are so fuckin jumbled together that i doubt it'll end up being worth reading.. but one things for sure- its gonna be a damn longgggg poem.. i almost have a page and i'm no where near the main part.. i'm in stat lab right now and ugh its so gay.. i hate this class..i hate statistics.. i dont see why we learn so much complicated stuff that will never matter.. i can understand learning the basics of statistics- esp if ur a psyc major but the shit we're learnin right now makes noooo sense... its so gay.. blah.. ok so i'm goin into one of my down moods again.. i hate these damn ups and downs.. the medicine keeps me from goin tooo far down but i still have my damn moody ups and downs.. i guess before any medicine the range was greater... like my moods would be -100 thru +100... but now with the medicine its more like -10 thru +10 .. so its more leveled out.. but still up and down.. jus not as dramatic.. its almost as if i jus dont feel anything as strongly anymore.. for example.. recently i jus lost trust in a lota ppl.. no biggy but included in those people were 2 ppl that i REALLY REALLY cared about.. i thought they were my grls... i was wrong.. i cried a few tears and now i'm done... if i wasnt on pills i probably would have cried a lot more and been way more upset.. but u know what- i'm not gonna let this get the best of me.. not now.. not ever.. not ever ever again..

i'll post the poem when i finish it.. blah.. i doubt it'll turn out good..but whatever..