wolfpack I'm completely sober
hey, what's up internet? I didn't really figure anybody else was awake, and I was just kinda sick and tired of trying to figure it out. So I just sat in my bed and thought about how I'm really really crazy about Scarlet Johannsen and how that got me kinda down, and I'm not really sure why. And, I don't know, it just seemed like somethin to talk about. Recently, I was privy to a conversation where a friend I barely talk to was discussing how somebody he knew seemed lost and was just wandering around in the direction of whatever looked attractive at that particular second, and I let out a laugh that a person could be that weak. hah. I don't know what people's deal is, you know, that they could actually react or be themselves. React's not quite a good word though, I guess. That's what chameleons do. They just sorta blend into their surroundings, and that's not really the connotation I'm wanting to get across with that. Either way, it's started to occur to me that I don't do well when more than one person is around and I'm starting to figure out why. I'm also starting to figure out that I like compliments when I don't believe them. But I mean, I am an egotistical asshole and all, so why wouldn't I? Right? I don't know, to be honest. If I'm confident then I'm egotistical, and if I'm not confident, then I get really excited when something happens to make me confident and then I'm egotistical. I don't know. I'm going to get my lip tatoo redone tomorrow and I'm probably going to go by myself. I'm tired of stupid poetry and I'm tired of stupid livejournal and I'm tired of stupid lies and I'm tired of stupid vague references to vague stupid circumstances and I'm tired of a personal marketing plan and I'm tired of writing about how I should get that job and I'm jealous of Carter Durea and I'm tired or people having feelings and I'm tired of stupid complacency and I'm tired of hearing that people say "shawn zorn just doesn't have close friends" and I'm tired of stupid worrying about that anyway and I'm tired of being a good guy and I'm tired of being such a self serving asshole and I'm tired of coheed and cambria and I'm tired of everything except being awake, so I'm probably just going to go for a walk.
hey.
hey.