on a happier note
Yesterday and today has done alot for my mood.My JSR as usual saves the day. Me and him had a long talk about all the feelings and things that put me in a bad mood. He just listened. Which was all i think i really needed. i'm starting to find out that holding it in is what i'm used to but really isn't the best way to deal with my issues. And i just can't talk to anyone about my problems. if i want to talk to you i'll come to you but if i don't then don't ask me to talk to you about it.i know when someone is sad you want to help but i don't want to be helped. I just want to go home but when it comes to going home i really don't have anywhere to go and that bothers me.I don't know what i want to do with my major, and i'm way to far in to change my major for a 4th time. so i need to figure out what i want to do with my life and no knowing makes me feel like i'm staying still. you can't move in a direction until you know where you want to end up. I so badly want an internship this summer and which now finding out i have two more years of school left i don't know if i'll be able to get one becuz more agencies want you to be a senior. So in that sense i may be fucked, which i'm not to happy with. The AAF competition is approaching fast which means i'm having ad group meeting 4 times a week which is just stressing me out. The meetings are just everyone arguing and people thinking they are the boss.And while i'm doing this i have to balance classes which aren't all that easy this semester so i'm just getting a bit overwhelmed.The fact that i owe everyone and they Grandmother money doesn't really help that fact.i guess i need to put back on my big girl pants and deal with it.but i don't want to slit my wrist and play emo music so i guess that is a good thing.