Mari
I am through wasting my life and investing emotions into that woman. One of the main reasons I wanted to move, but she never just quite went away. I believed in this apocryphal relationship we had later on, and that makes me an idiot.
Just a lonely little person who always tries to come back to me when her life isn't going well or she's single. It's mostly the latter. The song "Dammit" by Blink 182 describes the situation perfectly.
This time, I will keep my word on this one. I am finished. No longer will I let someone effect me emotionally in a negative way. I am too good for that. I am too damn old for that. This has happened too many times.
I want to come back and read this entry years from now and be able to take pride in the fact that I havn't talked to her since. Being realistic though, I am sure I will talk to her again. However that's all it will be, empty words.
Not only do I deserve better, I will find better. After all, I am Shawn Oliver. One of the big four.
Just a lonely little person who always tries to come back to me when her life isn't going well or she's single. It's mostly the latter. The song "Dammit" by Blink 182 describes the situation perfectly.
This time, I will keep my word on this one. I am finished. No longer will I let someone effect me emotionally in a negative way. I am too good for that. I am too damn old for that. This has happened too many times.
I want to come back and read this entry years from now and be able to take pride in the fact that I havn't talked to her since. Being realistic though, I am sure I will talk to her again. However that's all it will be, empty words.
Not only do I deserve better, I will find better. After all, I am Shawn Oliver. One of the big four.