Oct 08, 2009 20:32
its hard, to breath. life is so short, so fragile, so scary. i don't know how it works, but its ways are truly mysterious. life is full of surprises, good and bad, painful and blissfull, life just is. Things can happen to a million people, and you'll always think that it would never happen to you, mainly because of the odds. What are the odds? it can be as good as winning the lottery to dying by suffacating from hugging your teddy bear too tight. if the odds are against you, then you'd never think that it will happen to you. but then one day, you wake up, and you won. no one ever thought to count the number of breaths they take in their life time, but they're so valuable. im not complaining, or looking for attention, in fact that's the last t thing i want or need. this'll pass. it will. i know it. it could just be nothing, it could just be normal. he said its "common" so that
means that a lot of ppl go through it. but what are the odds that im one of them? now that i am, what are the odds that it could be worse? the answer is 1 out of 20. theres a 5% chance. i know thats not big but out of a room full of 20 of ppl like me, one of our lives will change forever. i guess i just have to hope. im lucky, i really am and if i am that 1 out of twenty, then i'll overcome it, just like how im going to overcome this now, before it gets worse. i just need to breath. and to those of you who are going to start worrying, its not like i can tell you to stop, but thanks for caring so much:) i love you all.
"Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me"
old songs are like old friends, they're always needed