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Here I am laughing at myself for my decisions lately, not thinking them through and planning escape plans. I told myself when I joined the Navy I would never get involved with people I work with. There I was involved with a female on board, that ended in pure disaster. Luckily I prepared for it and the blast bounced harmlessly off. People creating truely unique rumors about things i've done, short of blowing up a hospital and kicking an old woman in the face for no apparent reason. I'll chop it up and leave it at jealousy for now untill I find the root of the problem. Then again I don't really want to, drama is alot of fun when you're on the recieving end and keep your head up. Soon i'll be sipping wine and chugging beer in the comfort of my Floridian home and enjoying the company of my closest friends and family. It matters to me not that the children on board this ship having nothing better to do than to make me look like shit so the interest of the females falls off of me and onto the other person. Unfortunatly, for them, it's only helping my heated resolve of not caring about anyone or anything onboard of this floating piece of shit. As the days go on my life gets steadily better as I shed off unwanted and unneeded bullshit because it only hinders my good mood. I can safely say I don't care what anyone around me thinks of me. The only important opinion about me onboard this floating chunk of metal is my own and it will stay as such. In short people can kiss my ass. Make my life hell? It'll come back ten-fold when I'm done fucking yours up. As bad as you can make my life seem in your eyes it only gets better in mine. Futile attempts to get me to succumb to your childish schemes and hilarious pictures of how much of an asshole I really am, make me laugh. You want to see how much of an asshole I am? I'll let you see a small example and keep it mounting untill you can't take it, give in, and commit self-mutilation as you cry about how shitty your life is. Won't take me in one on one, man to man end? I'll make sure you and your buddies never wish to take me on no matter how many friends you have and how alone I feel. It'd be safer for your group of lackies to corner a mountain lion in it's own habitat then to think you can take me on. I'm ready for the world with my chin held high, my stomach sucked in, my chest puffed out, and my eyes wide open. Though I highly doubt it's ready for one of my confidence, and self-carelessness. Bring it on and you'll see just how disasterous the end will be. Said from the courage that boils in my heart and the hate that builds in my soul.