have you ever needed a good cry?

[shawnanananana]

So I drove around for two hours tonight....um it was neat. from the hours of about 1 am to 3 am I was up around Sunrise, the street not the event, and I just continued to drive over big hills to see the city light peek over the road. Now as Charlotte knows this scares the crap out of me because I hate not being able to see the road beneath me. (no worries charlotte it still sends chills through me). I think I was just searching for a way to get myself to have a good cry and I figured if I thought I was going to die , that would probably do it. No such luck... it's weird how sometimes you feel like you need something so terribly that you know will sooth you completely and you just can't get to it. I honestly don't know what's going on right now..

I'm in a weird mood.....I'm not depressed or anything but I am definitely crazy.

Have you ever thought that there was something out there in the world that everyone but you has or has experienced that you haven't?

Like maybe there's a color that everyone but you knows about................magellow?

It's just something you are supposed to completely miss out on until you are in your death bed when you finally get it and you finally feel whole. But you aren't able to live it because ten seconds later you die.

..........................Josh and Petie thanks for putting up with my silent thing that I had going on tonight. Much love to the both of you.