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so.. tomorrow is fathers day.
i wont be spending it with my father, he lives in georgia, i guess i hate him, but its just so weird i hear everyone talk about there dad in a good or bad way, i hear them say what they do with their dads and all that great stuff, but i cant say ne thing all i can say is how much hurt he put in my family, but yet my mom still "loves" him. their not divorced but she says she filed, but she said that along time ago. did she lie? i dont know. i will see him at the family reunion i dont know what i should do, look at him, stare, and not say hi, or say hey papa bear and give him a hug, i feel like i need a father rite now. i feel like my family is so empty without him. as much as i love him not living with us rite now, it still hurts that i dont have a father, a great father, a father thats there for me, and supports me, all my dad ever does is call me fat and ugly, and says how much he hates me, and how the world would be so much better without me living in it... w/e i just cant always get what i want... ever
ahhhhhhhh..
well.
i miss you.
ahh ur great