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So, uh, so far, life sucks. But I'll get to that.
I haven't updated since Thursday. You know why? Skies of Arcadia. Yep. That game is damn good, especially since it is little more than a fixed up version of a dreamcast port. Anyway, I've been playing that all day everyday, other than a few side quests... like my first trip to the vu. Which, by the way, was fun, I admit, but it wasn't so exciting that I plan on going back asap... or ever, really. Oh yeah, I 3.5'd French. Didn't boost my gpa. Retaking it did, but not acing it. Ironic, eh? Either way, I gained over .2 points.
So yeah. If you are a lady friend who happens to have an interest in me, do not read this next part. In fact, call me and explain to me why I do not know of this, and then don't read it.
Ok, so yeah. I am single, and it is not bad. Know why? Well, because there is a veritable smorgasborg of ladies out there, and I get to think about what I really want. And then I think about what I may actually get, and well, it's not quite as sweet. But alas, I think it is a good time for me to be single right now. I mean, it allowed me to raise my gpa a little, own in DDR, etc.
But yes, I am not hot. I realize this. I talk mad stuff, but I know the truth. I don't have rugged good looks. I have little to no upper body strength, and all my lower body strength comes from DDR... I might be smart, I'm not exactly easy to get along with. I don't like people. In fact, if I actually talk to you in a friendly way, consider yourself one of the few.
Anyway, I know my shortcomings, and since I can't sleep... I mean, I just turned off Skies to try to sleep, and I am not having any luck. Hence the lj update. I was laying there thinking of how I couldn't sleep. I was thinking of the tangled web... no, the maelstrom that is my love life. Actually, my lack thereof.
You've heard the story. The ex wants me back. I'm still very friendly with the girl I just broke up with, even though technically she broke up with me, right? Now, since I haven't heard from the ex since... a while ago. It was the day before she started her job, actually, so it's a legit reason. But anyway, since I haven't heard from her, I am beginning to consider it a lost cause.
Since I still care about her, and I don't really know, I am not going to do anything just yet. But doesn't mean I can't look. There is one girl who is definately wife potential, except there's no way it would last that long. There is one girl who is wonderful, both in actions and in looks, but is out of my league? There is one girl who is simply untouchable, for many reasons, despite the fact that I am slowly going crazy for her. There is THE ex, who trumps anyone else, if it works out. There is the one who is completely not my type, but is hot nonetheless.
Yeah, it is nice being single, because I can look. I can look, and judge, and debate, and wonder, and not feel bad about a damn bit of it. Granted, there is something nice about having that one person to hold, to be with, to talk to, to share your innermost thoughts with, especially those carnal ones. There's just a lot of good things about not having that one too. Not that I don't want that one, I'm just saying that I am fine not having that one. For a while.
Anyway, if I'm not going to sleep, I'm at least going to get some good RPGin' in, so back to Skies for me. p.s. If you see my at work tomorrow, and I'm dead, just slap me or something.
*edit: So everytime I post, something happens that makes me want to revoke something I just posted. You know what, I'm not gonna. Just deal with my not knowing what I may have changed my mind about.
I haven't updated since Thursday. You know why? Skies of Arcadia. Yep. That game is damn good, especially since it is little more than a fixed up version of a dreamcast port. Anyway, I've been playing that all day everyday, other than a few side quests... like my first trip to the vu. Which, by the way, was fun, I admit, but it wasn't so exciting that I plan on going back asap... or ever, really. Oh yeah, I 3.5'd French. Didn't boost my gpa. Retaking it did, but not acing it. Ironic, eh? Either way, I gained over .2 points.
So yeah. If you are a lady friend who happens to have an interest in me, do not read this next part. In fact, call me and explain to me why I do not know of this, and then don't read it.
Ok, so yeah. I am single, and it is not bad. Know why? Well, because there is a veritable smorgasborg of ladies out there, and I get to think about what I really want. And then I think about what I may actually get, and well, it's not quite as sweet. But alas, I think it is a good time for me to be single right now. I mean, it allowed me to raise my gpa a little, own in DDR, etc.
But yes, I am not hot. I realize this. I talk mad stuff, but I know the truth. I don't have rugged good looks. I have little to no upper body strength, and all my lower body strength comes from DDR... I might be smart, I'm not exactly easy to get along with. I don't like people. In fact, if I actually talk to you in a friendly way, consider yourself one of the few.
Anyway, I know my shortcomings, and since I can't sleep... I mean, I just turned off Skies to try to sleep, and I am not having any luck. Hence the lj update. I was laying there thinking of how I couldn't sleep. I was thinking of the tangled web... no, the maelstrom that is my love life. Actually, my lack thereof.
You've heard the story. The ex wants me back. I'm still very friendly with the girl I just broke up with, even though technically she broke up with me, right? Now, since I haven't heard from the ex since... a while ago. It was the day before she started her job, actually, so it's a legit reason. But anyway, since I haven't heard from her, I am beginning to consider it a lost cause.
Since I still care about her, and I don't really know, I am not going to do anything just yet. But doesn't mean I can't look. There is one girl who is definately wife potential, except there's no way it would last that long. There is one girl who is wonderful, both in actions and in looks, but is out of my league? There is one girl who is simply untouchable, for many reasons, despite the fact that I am slowly going crazy for her. There is THE ex, who trumps anyone else, if it works out. There is the one who is completely not my type, but is hot nonetheless.
Yeah, it is nice being single, because I can look. I can look, and judge, and debate, and wonder, and not feel bad about a damn bit of it. Granted, there is something nice about having that one person to hold, to be with, to talk to, to share your innermost thoughts with, especially those carnal ones. There's just a lot of good things about not having that one too. Not that I don't want that one, I'm just saying that I am fine not having that one. For a while.
Anyway, if I'm not going to sleep, I'm at least going to get some good RPGin' in, so back to Skies for me. p.s. If you see my at work tomorrow, and I'm dead, just slap me or something.
*edit: So everytime I post, something happens that makes me want to revoke something I just posted. You know what, I'm not gonna. Just deal with my not knowing what I may have changed my mind about.