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heh, i worked 21 hours straight... had 3 hours of sleep, and now im ready for 10 more hours.really, what happened....? its shit like this that makes me question why i always put myself through tough times on purpose like this. let me be honest with what ive been doing with every single second of my spare time...
Fiesta Online. i made it to the highest level, most respected guild, and most reverered player, with the most powerful and rare unique weapon in my possession. i did the most damage, groundbreaking godly damage, of all the players in the entire game. i was the in game celebrity and everyone knew me. i reached that point at the BEGINING OF DECEMBER. and im still playing the damn game. talk about unhealthy addictions. why didnt i quit ? the highest level cap got higher. so like an idiot i kept on playing. that is my life for the last... oh....3 months. non stop. maybe 5-8 hours a day. what a loser i am. do you imagine the scale of sucess i would have if i did something, ANYTING ELSE?
- if i were to take up art again, my art would be groundbreaking, emotional art and be revered in the art community of my amazing masterpieces .
-if i were to learn computer science self taught instead, id know as much as a bachelor's in 4 months.
- if i poured 5-8+ hours nonstop at ANYTHING other than gaming, id be MUCH more sucessfull and probably more financially stable than i am nnow.
i need to start over.... with life.... i made one small mistake, and it lead me down a road that lasted 7 years, and is still going. where am i going in life? what SHOULD i be doing to get there? one thing is for certain. fiesta wont get me there. im quitting fiesta.
Fiesta Online. i made it to the highest level, most respected guild, and most reverered player, with the most powerful and rare unique weapon in my possession. i did the most damage, groundbreaking godly damage, of all the players in the entire game. i was the in game celebrity and everyone knew me. i reached that point at the BEGINING OF DECEMBER. and im still playing the damn game. talk about unhealthy addictions. why didnt i quit ? the highest level cap got higher. so like an idiot i kept on playing. that is my life for the last... oh....3 months. non stop. maybe 5-8 hours a day. what a loser i am. do you imagine the scale of sucess i would have if i did something, ANYTING ELSE?
- if i were to take up art again, my art would be groundbreaking, emotional art and be revered in the art community of my amazing masterpieces .
-if i were to learn computer science self taught instead, id know as much as a bachelor's in 4 months.
- if i poured 5-8+ hours nonstop at ANYTHING other than gaming, id be MUCH more sucessfull and probably more financially stable than i am nnow.
i need to start over.... with life.... i made one small mistake, and it lead me down a road that lasted 7 years, and is still going. where am i going in life? what SHOULD i be doing to get there? one thing is for certain. fiesta wont get me there. im quitting fiesta.