go ahead lucas, say it again.
it's been awhile since i've offered anything of sustenance to the readers. really this journal only serves to advertise and let those who are too distant to see me regularly know something about my life. i do attempt to become a bit naked in my journal or i at least feel nekid here.
expect the chopped up thoughts.
(i don't want to make it obvious to everyone but i expose myself for the viewing pleasure of my two distant readers. you know who you are and you should know how much i love and care for you. it isn't so much as exposing myself because the two of you have at one point in my life been the closest to my heart as possible.)
the boring stuff. i'm skipping classes (art and english) in school and realizing how it isn't a big deal at all. in fact the two teachers love me and have never said a thing to me about it. my grades have dropped but hopefully not too much. i am worried about it though. i feel like my acceptance to oberlin was a shot in the dark. what i mean to say is why in the hell did they let me in to the school. my only guess is because i knew how to sweet talk them and had the help of two sweet talkers. heh.
what else. work. i like making money but i work nearly every day. it's not hard work i just feel like i get jerked around by them quite a bit.
i'm finally gaining some, maybe just a little, perspective on my life due to the fact that it's senior year and i'm looking at a new chapter in my life. Oberlin, by the way gave me lots of money so it will only cost me 3k a year. woot! I'm looking back on relationships and seeing just how young i was at the time. i'm seeing my experiences as pebbles, i'm taking the time to look at them as i walk down the path and finally i'm spending more time enjoying the walk instead of trying to decide which pebbles to carry with me. //wow. an accurate analogy. lacks detail though.
=>should someone own a not so tattered copy of ender's game/shadow/anything from that series i would like very much to borrow it. i know that i don't have the free time to be reading but meh, when do i ever stick to my plans.
i'm really banking on college providing me with the opportunity to flip my life over. i think i've decided that i don't want the life where i'm seeking to indulge myself materialistically but one where i can finally have that discussion that kept everyone up until the wee hours.
#1 problem. dreaming. i shouldn't be thinking about the discussion with the group. i should enjoy the group i'm presently around and when the chance arises make something of it.
terminate.
expect the chopped up thoughts.
(i don't want to make it obvious to everyone but i expose myself for the viewing pleasure of my two distant readers. you know who you are and you should know how much i love and care for you. it isn't so much as exposing myself because the two of you have at one point in my life been the closest to my heart as possible.)
the boring stuff. i'm skipping classes (art and english) in school and realizing how it isn't a big deal at all. in fact the two teachers love me and have never said a thing to me about it. my grades have dropped but hopefully not too much. i am worried about it though. i feel like my acceptance to oberlin was a shot in the dark. what i mean to say is why in the hell did they let me in to the school. my only guess is because i knew how to sweet talk them and had the help of two sweet talkers. heh.
what else. work. i like making money but i work nearly every day. it's not hard work i just feel like i get jerked around by them quite a bit.
i'm finally gaining some, maybe just a little, perspective on my life due to the fact that it's senior year and i'm looking at a new chapter in my life. Oberlin, by the way gave me lots of money so it will only cost me 3k a year. woot! I'm looking back on relationships and seeing just how young i was at the time. i'm seeing my experiences as pebbles, i'm taking the time to look at them as i walk down the path and finally i'm spending more time enjoying the walk instead of trying to decide which pebbles to carry with me. //wow. an accurate analogy. lacks detail though.
=>should someone own a not so tattered copy of ender's game/shadow/anything from that series i would like very much to borrow it. i know that i don't have the free time to be reading but meh, when do i ever stick to my plans.
i'm really banking on college providing me with the opportunity to flip my life over. i think i've decided that i don't want the life where i'm seeking to indulge myself materialistically but one where i can finally have that discussion that kept everyone up until the wee hours.
#1 problem. dreaming. i shouldn't be thinking about the discussion with the group. i should enjoy the group i'm presently around and when the chance arises make something of it.
terminate.