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I feel bad that i missed work tonight.. not just because i'm
loosing eight hours of zhoonya its that this is my team. i
do like the work i do.. i wonder if thats one of my gifts is
to alwaya like and get into the work i do.
my two favorite people. tug and tracy left.. tug was my boss,
and i didn't post anything about him, but he was a fantastic
manager and his enthusiasim and striving for excellence was
infectious. tracy was just cool. didn't really like her much
at the beginning, but she became my confidant.
this is sooooo stupid because when i thought that i could tell
sonny things about being a girl.. not 'his girl' but a gal pal
like who i thought was cute... well taht backfired because i
said that my boss was gorgeous... tug was BEAUTIFUL.. all of a
sudden i had an intimate relationship with him. and accused me
on several occassions that i was sleeping with him. which i
wasn't... there was a time that sonny and i were fighting thru
text msging and i had this scowl come over my face and tug
saw it, and said 'gimme the phone' ICK no that would juss add
to the problem, having a guy that he was jelouse of awnser my
phone.
i have to remember shit like this because imma look at the baby
and long for a relationship... gloss over all the crappy parts,
the parts that i wouldn't stand for... well stand for when i'm
an outsider looking in. different story when its happening to you.
"the scars of your love remind me of us" is a lyric from rolling
in the deep by adele... a video that i juss happen to see on mtv
VIDEOS ON MTV??? yes it was awesome vid. anyway she speaks to me
and sonny.."we could've had it all" anyway the scars of our love,
that reminds me of us, is not the baby... its actually that burn
on the underside of my left upper arm, the circular burn, i'm
amazed by it, or amazed by the severity of it, i barely touched
myself and singed... i remember looking at it and telling sonny
that i should put like two more dots so it looks like a pattern
not just a skin disease. he laughed... anyway its my personal
physical reminder of us.
I layed in bed this evening reading a book and the sun was going
down in glory.. and i had this feeling of wonderful love of sonny
wash over me, that my love for him is in that time when the son
is going down and is so warm... so beautiful... so fleeting.
loosing eight hours of zhoonya its that this is my team. i
do like the work i do.. i wonder if thats one of my gifts is
to alwaya like and get into the work i do.
my two favorite people. tug and tracy left.. tug was my boss,
and i didn't post anything about him, but he was a fantastic
manager and his enthusiasim and striving for excellence was
infectious. tracy was just cool. didn't really like her much
at the beginning, but she became my confidant.
this is sooooo stupid because when i thought that i could tell
sonny things about being a girl.. not 'his girl' but a gal pal
like who i thought was cute... well taht backfired because i
said that my boss was gorgeous... tug was BEAUTIFUL.. all of a
sudden i had an intimate relationship with him. and accused me
on several occassions that i was sleeping with him. which i
wasn't... there was a time that sonny and i were fighting thru
text msging and i had this scowl come over my face and tug
saw it, and said 'gimme the phone' ICK no that would juss add
to the problem, having a guy that he was jelouse of awnser my
phone.
i have to remember shit like this because imma look at the baby
and long for a relationship... gloss over all the crappy parts,
the parts that i wouldn't stand for... well stand for when i'm
an outsider looking in. different story when its happening to you.
"the scars of your love remind me of us" is a lyric from rolling
in the deep by adele... a video that i juss happen to see on mtv
VIDEOS ON MTV??? yes it was awesome vid. anyway she speaks to me
and sonny.."we could've had it all" anyway the scars of our love,
that reminds me of us, is not the baby... its actually that burn
on the underside of my left upper arm, the circular burn, i'm
amazed by it, or amazed by the severity of it, i barely touched
myself and singed... i remember looking at it and telling sonny
that i should put like two more dots so it looks like a pattern
not just a skin disease. he laughed... anyway its my personal
physical reminder of us.
I layed in bed this evening reading a book and the sun was going
down in glory.. and i had this feeling of wonderful love of sonny
wash over me, that my love for him is in that time when the son
is going down and is so warm... so beautiful... so fleeting.