spending my days in leftcoast land
were we are a "we".. an "us".. "our home".. and we
come visit my mom. like the ocean waves we hit the
highs and lows. OMG we had an awesome night a couple
dayz ago well it was following a crappy night. so
ebb and flow. anyway we went to this bar and the dj
played like his whole hawaiian cd and he danced. and
i danced with him. it was the shyte. and he bought
me flowers.
um thursday i was done with work and just made it
to my moms house and changed and sat at my beading
table he called. "what are you doing" "you know your
coming over right" "GET OVER HERE" lol not so demanding
so i changed again and i hoped the bus's to get to
our/his side of town and we were gonna see a movie.
our plan was to go out but he lost energy so we juss
slept.
gawd i'm so enamoured by him and if last night he was
speaking truthfully he is juss enamoured by me, but
he's fightin it.
well i made him do something that he hadn't done in like
26 years. lol. i made him stay at my place, and sleep in
my bed. he's all i never slept in my ex wifes bed at her
parents house. lol. dork i wasn't gonna sleep on the
floor and i wasn't gonna ask him too. the couch was
open but my mom was awake she's on an overnight schedule
so he'd be awake with her, which kind of freeks him out
i dunno he asks me for things i want. like last night,
tell me three things that you want. well everytime he
asks me that its like an invitation for a debate because
i think he senses that i'm not telling him what i really
WANT. which is obviously his baby, his romance, and his
friendship. DUH. but i'm not gonna tell him that. i dunno
maybe if i did it'd be alright but i'm not ready to gamble
"us" on that... i don't want to lose him. which we talk
everyday...
he's going to california on weds. and will be gone till
like the first. and that makes me like sad. i don't know
what i'm gonna do.
come visit my mom. like the ocean waves we hit the
highs and lows. OMG we had an awesome night a couple
dayz ago well it was following a crappy night. so
ebb and flow. anyway we went to this bar and the dj
played like his whole hawaiian cd and he danced. and
i danced with him. it was the shyte. and he bought
me flowers.
um thursday i was done with work and just made it
to my moms house and changed and sat at my beading
table he called. "what are you doing" "you know your
coming over right" "GET OVER HERE" lol not so demanding
so i changed again and i hoped the bus's to get to
our/his side of town and we were gonna see a movie.
our plan was to go out but he lost energy so we juss
slept.
gawd i'm so enamoured by him and if last night he was
speaking truthfully he is juss enamoured by me, but
he's fightin it.
well i made him do something that he hadn't done in like
26 years. lol. i made him stay at my place, and sleep in
my bed. he's all i never slept in my ex wifes bed at her
parents house. lol. dork i wasn't gonna sleep on the
floor and i wasn't gonna ask him too. the couch was
open but my mom was awake she's on an overnight schedule
so he'd be awake with her, which kind of freeks him out
i dunno he asks me for things i want. like last night,
tell me three things that you want. well everytime he
asks me that its like an invitation for a debate because
i think he senses that i'm not telling him what i really
WANT. which is obviously his baby, his romance, and his
friendship. DUH. but i'm not gonna tell him that. i dunno
maybe if i did it'd be alright but i'm not ready to gamble
"us" on that... i don't want to lose him. which we talk
everyday...
he's going to california on weds. and will be gone till
like the first. and that makes me like sad. i don't know
what i'm gonna do.