Could it get any worse...doubt it...
I dont mean to be so negative lately, but it just seems that everything bad that could happen to me is happening right now. where do i begin...well. im not going to graduate on time i know that now...i've been going to school for 13 years....and its all for nothing now. its my fault though. so im going to have to take another class of homeschooling and finish it during the sumemr and they will send me my diploma...but its not the same as being at the Palace for Graduation. I cant even begin to say how I feel about it...It makes me sick thinking about it...im disgusted with myself.......cant even walk down the aisle with that cool little hat thing with ribbon things on it and a long robe thing....i make myself sick....sick.
then rick is very very sick....too sick....and its weird
then the only person i cared about hates my guts.....my fault i know....but if he never played around with me 4 two months it never would have happened..i waited long enough...if i tell myself this over and over again i dont feel so bad...but i do. its not fair to me. hes the only thing that made me happy...when i was with him i forgot about all the problems...now i dont have that anymore so im stuck thinking about them every second of the day...i mean im sorry that i hurt him. but we werent together. rob im sorry and i love you. but....its over with...and maybe your right....maybe we shouldnt be together...