Apr 13, 2006 11:42
damn man its been forever! well anyway i guess the only time i really write in this thing is when i have something to vent out, or whenever i just wanna write about my life experiences to get shit off my mind and maybe feel a little better. well anyway a lot has happened since the last time i wrote in this thing. school is going so and so I'm really stressed about my cal 2 class, i fucking hate it. if i wanna pass i have to do good on the quizzes and tests. it sucks because not only is the class fucking hard, but the failure rate of it is 7/10 which is about 70%. I'm gonna be fucking pissed if i don't pass. but i guess you can say that's not whats really on my mind at the moment. i guess you can say I'm stuck between to girls, and that situation really sucks. i recently got really close to one of my friends and i started having feelings for her. i can tell she really cares for me, because she told me, but i dunno its hard to explain. i would love to be with someone like that but it just isn't that easy. on the other hand with this other girl, I've liked her ever since the first time i met her, and i dunno but i cant really read her, i cant tell how she feels. whenever we hang out we have so much fun and its a blast. i was kinda seeing one of them i guess you can say, the one that was a friend first and i started liking, but i told her that i couldn't do that right now because I'm so damn confused and that i needed to figure out what to do. i have an idea on what i must do, i have to see what they both have to offer, kinda like playing my cards in a poker game. I'm still not sure if one likes me but i just have 2 see, i know what i can have with one of them, so i want to see if anything can happen with the other, i dunno if that makes sense. i dunno i feel like that's what i have 2 do, and that's probably what ill end up doing, so i dunno if anyone of you guys reads this maybe you can tell me your opinion, after all it is my decision and I'm the only one that can pick so don't be afraid to tell me what you really think. ok well i guess that's it peace out!