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My last barn show was tonight, and it hit me really really really hard.
So now, I'm going to watch a movie and curl up into a ball and pretend that I didn't make an ass out of myself this evening... even though no one really knows because for the most part it was in my head. But still, I'm going to pretend I didn't make an ass out of my self and cry myself to sleep.
I'm sorry to be so dramatic. Something inside me just wants to let people into the personal hell I'm experiencing because it's my last show and because of other compounding barn-semi-related reasons. But I still can't, and I'm sorry.
So now, I'm going to watch a movie and curl up into a ball and pretend that I didn't make an ass out of myself this evening... even though no one really knows because for the most part it was in my head. But still, I'm going to pretend I didn't make an ass out of my self and cry myself to sleep.
I'm sorry to be so dramatic. Something inside me just wants to let people into the personal hell I'm experiencing because it's my last show and because of other compounding barn-semi-related reasons. But I still can't, and I'm sorry.