BLAAAA BLAAAAA BLAAA BLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow...
im soo sick of it all... these games that everyone seems to so love playing r really becomeing out of hand and insain and im soo worn down by it all... ive become emotionall, spiritually, mentally and physically exhausted of all the unwanted B/S that is, has and probly for a long time continue to go on... i want to just give up and wave my white flag up high for all to see... i want to just find a well hidden hole to crawl into and hide from it all... do ppl really think that all this crap they r giving out is wanted, needed or even nesecary... well no its not... this shit really needs to stop, all of it, and never happen again... either it stop or ppl who claim to have at least some respect for me show me that respect and just leave me out of it... i just can't take it anymore... at this point i feel as if im about to either explode or just fully break down... what was once grief i felt about my soon to come move is now replaced, not compleatly, with relief... im finding myself more and more pleased about leaving it all behind and starting my life a new... ppl most really think that my life is free from conflict seeing as how everyone loves to place all thier conflict apon my sholders or dish out more conflict to me like its fucking candy or something... but here is a news flash for some ppl........ i have enough damn conflict of my own thank u all and i don't require any more... ive come to the point were i really can't fully deal with all the conflict of my own, the problems of mine that rest on my sholders r still pulling me down to a place that kills my very soul, my heart is still broken into billions of tiny pieces, shattered really, and i struggle everyday to dessperatly attempt piecing thos fragments back together, i have no true pride in myself and never really had, im only good at one thing and that is putting on my mask everyday day of my pathetic miserable life and playing the role of the person ppl see me as, so i really can't deal with anything else anymore... but if ppl still feel obligated to abuse me, and obviously a lot of ppl still do, then please do me the favor and waiting till i am dead to do so....................
im soo sick of it all... these games that everyone seems to so love playing r really becomeing out of hand and insain and im soo worn down by it all... ive become emotionall, spiritually, mentally and physically exhausted of all the unwanted B/S that is, has and probly for a long time continue to go on... i want to just give up and wave my white flag up high for all to see... i want to just find a well hidden hole to crawl into and hide from it all... do ppl really think that all this crap they r giving out is wanted, needed or even nesecary... well no its not... this shit really needs to stop, all of it, and never happen again... either it stop or ppl who claim to have at least some respect for me show me that respect and just leave me out of it... i just can't take it anymore... at this point i feel as if im about to either explode or just fully break down... what was once grief i felt about my soon to come move is now replaced, not compleatly, with relief... im finding myself more and more pleased about leaving it all behind and starting my life a new... ppl most really think that my life is free from conflict seeing as how everyone loves to place all thier conflict apon my sholders or dish out more conflict to me like its fucking candy or something... but here is a news flash for some ppl........ i have enough damn conflict of my own thank u all and i don't require any more... ive come to the point were i really can't fully deal with all the conflict of my own, the problems of mine that rest on my sholders r still pulling me down to a place that kills my very soul, my heart is still broken into billions of tiny pieces, shattered really, and i struggle everyday to dessperatly attempt piecing thos fragments back together, i have no true pride in myself and never really had, im only good at one thing and that is putting on my mask everyday day of my pathetic miserable life and playing the role of the person ppl see me as, so i really can't deal with anything else anymore... but if ppl still feel obligated to abuse me, and obviously a lot of ppl still do, then please do me the favor and waiting till i am dead to do so....................