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[shaveek]

well not too much has been going on with me as of late... ive been getting more and more time off of work cause of hour cuts, even tho now everyone else seems to have more hours... maybe im just dissliked... things have been going as good as possible, i guess, in my day to day life... i have been stressing alot about my comeing up move, im kinda forcing myself into a stress due to the fact that im going to loose my car but really im very stressed about the move because i know the affect its going to have on ppl around me... i know that my move is going to hurt some ppl a lot more then they r willing to say, i mean im not stupid nor am i so selfcentered that it just goes over my head, i realize very well that some ppl r going to be very hurt, even mad, about me leaving and that really they don't even want me to go but because they realize that its the best thing for me they r just keeping thier mouths shut about it and wishing me the best... well u know what i don't want them to do that any more... what i really would like is for them to just say it, tell me how much my dicision bothers u, tell me all about how it upsets u that im just up and leaving... im not trying to burn my bridges with ppl nor am i trying to make ppl mad at me, all im trying to do is get ppl to be honest with me about thier feelings...

well anyway off to reajust my head cause i seem to make no sence even to myself........