Longing.
Im excited about Halloween. I love it. I love my costume idea (Alice from Resident Evil, ala the red Dress!) and it looks great too.
Though...there is one damper on it. Recently, well a month or so ago I lost a good friend of mine. Hes not dead or anything but due to stupidity and such we can no longer be friends. Despite alot of stuff that happened he was one of my best friends. I really felt like I could talk to him about anything and it was just nice because he could do the same. We really didnt have a whole lot of other friends in common so we could give each other 3rd person views into life and he was just a fun person.
I really want to reach out to him. But I know its for the best if I dont because we just cant be friends. I was really mad for a few weeks but now I'm just...morose...i guess..I should be angry and it feels wrong that I want to forgive him and hang out and talk like old times. I think I just miss talking. Plus he likes Scrubs as much as I do.
Anyway, end to this rant, doesnt really mean anything I suppose.
Though...there is one damper on it. Recently, well a month or so ago I lost a good friend of mine. Hes not dead or anything but due to stupidity and such we can no longer be friends. Despite alot of stuff that happened he was one of my best friends. I really felt like I could talk to him about anything and it was just nice because he could do the same. We really didnt have a whole lot of other friends in common so we could give each other 3rd person views into life and he was just a fun person.
I really want to reach out to him. But I know its for the best if I dont because we just cant be friends. I was really mad for a few weeks but now I'm just...morose...i guess..I should be angry and it feels wrong that I want to forgive him and hang out and talk like old times. I think I just miss talking. Plus he likes Scrubs as much as I do.
Anyway, end to this rant, doesnt really mean anything I suppose.