sickness
how do you make it all go away like it simpy never happened.
the answer= you cant no matter what and no matter who tells you it will ALWAYS be there.
to simply make it dissapear would be inhuman and wrong. you learn to just deal with it and know that the other is dealing with it maybe in a different situation but it doesnt go away. and LIFE goes on. Story of every human being. and we all sit here and write in these things about complete bullshit because well we can and believe it or not as much as everywhiny little shithead says they hate these things they really dont they thrive on them without them who would they take there bullshit out on and know that tons of people across the world are reading it. we all love this thing. just like myspace you hear millions talking about it in one way or another but they all truly couldnt live without it now that it was founded. they like the idea of taking pictures of themselves and posting them daily along with a cute or catchy phrase and know that someone is looking at them and you possibly look good because pictures are decieving and normally always look amazing or you can make them appear that way. why am i saying all this because i hear day to day i hate myspace and so on and so on and then later that day those same people are posting new pictures of themselves and telling you to comment on them and then some proceed to livejournal to tell you how much their lives suck or how much they hate this girl and on forth. then the next day they come to school saying omg did you see the new picture of me on myspace isnt just awesome and just to think they complained just yesterday about how much myspace sucks. Just seems all rather awkward. moral- we all really are in love with online postage.
plus i have been home for 4 days without anything but saved by the bell and dawsons creek and drew carry and so many movies while not being able to breath and coughing up a lung as well as shaking so badly and my thermometor overflowing. so i had tons of time to think.
plus my medicine made me have such rather messed up dreams and i missed so much school.
and i had time to think about friends i kicked a few out of my atmosphere for a while i dont have a whole lot who really mean anything mostly because they have proved to me that they dont want to mean much even if they didnt know it still hurts but whatever i get it all the time so i should be use to it right not i want a friend a really good one and trustworthy one senior year all my freinds dissapear great. and the ones i had last year when i was dating someone no longer talk to me even when i attempt to it makes me upset because just because we are not dating doesnt mean we cant talk even if you are best friends with him or even just friends i miss those people the most out of everything i lost i wish i could just talk to them or they would talk to me atleast. there are some of them who i shared alot of things to and they said they would be there whenever i dont know i just miss that group of people we had a lot of fun over those past two years and i just started getting close to a few people before i got dumped and we talked for a month or two and they stopped i liked them. and i sat in the car and cryed for almost two hours about what i'm not absolutely quite sure yet but maybe it will hit me after the sickness wears off and the drugs.
who cares anyways nobody reads this its here for the sole purpose of my feelings running out of my head into the computer screen.
the answer= you cant no matter what and no matter who tells you it will ALWAYS be there.
to simply make it dissapear would be inhuman and wrong. you learn to just deal with it and know that the other is dealing with it maybe in a different situation but it doesnt go away. and LIFE goes on. Story of every human being. and we all sit here and write in these things about complete bullshit because well we can and believe it or not as much as everywhiny little shithead says they hate these things they really dont they thrive on them without them who would they take there bullshit out on and know that tons of people across the world are reading it. we all love this thing. just like myspace you hear millions talking about it in one way or another but they all truly couldnt live without it now that it was founded. they like the idea of taking pictures of themselves and posting them daily along with a cute or catchy phrase and know that someone is looking at them and you possibly look good because pictures are decieving and normally always look amazing or you can make them appear that way. why am i saying all this because i hear day to day i hate myspace and so on and so on and then later that day those same people are posting new pictures of themselves and telling you to comment on them and then some proceed to livejournal to tell you how much their lives suck or how much they hate this girl and on forth. then the next day they come to school saying omg did you see the new picture of me on myspace isnt just awesome and just to think they complained just yesterday about how much myspace sucks. Just seems all rather awkward. moral- we all really are in love with online postage.
plus i have been home for 4 days without anything but saved by the bell and dawsons creek and drew carry and so many movies while not being able to breath and coughing up a lung as well as shaking so badly and my thermometor overflowing. so i had tons of time to think.
plus my medicine made me have such rather messed up dreams and i missed so much school.
and i had time to think about friends i kicked a few out of my atmosphere for a while i dont have a whole lot who really mean anything mostly because they have proved to me that they dont want to mean much even if they didnt know it still hurts but whatever i get it all the time so i should be use to it right not i want a friend a really good one and trustworthy one senior year all my freinds dissapear great. and the ones i had last year when i was dating someone no longer talk to me even when i attempt to it makes me upset because just because we are not dating doesnt mean we cant talk even if you are best friends with him or even just friends i miss those people the most out of everything i lost i wish i could just talk to them or they would talk to me atleast. there are some of them who i shared alot of things to and they said they would be there whenever i dont know i just miss that group of people we had a lot of fun over those past two years and i just started getting close to a few people before i got dumped and we talked for a month or two and they stopped i liked them. and i sat in the car and cryed for almost two hours about what i'm not absolutely quite sure yet but maybe it will hit me after the sickness wears off and the drugs.
who cares anyways nobody reads this its here for the sole purpose of my feelings running out of my head into the computer screen.