most of the time i can stay focused all around
i want to smoke... baad. the motion of sucking on a pipe is soothing to me. i'm in a "fuck off, i HATE!" mood, & i know that pot and a mixed drink will calm me.
sort of like last friday. there was a little get-together at nuri's house & the reasons i decided to make the trip into the city at 11 pm were - 1) i love nuri, 2) it'd be my last free weekend in a long while 3) alcohol. i craved liquor so much that day. & did i drink when i got there?? NO. a sip here & there of rum & malibu. i poured beer (& vanilla extract! gross! hehe) into the pancake batter ken & mike made, ate a piece, gagged, & said no more. the rest of the time, i drank poland spring out of a measuring cup. slap me. by 1 am, i was so antsy & fed-up with my own abstinence, i was impatiently jumping up and down along w/ eric sporer & the subwoofer to the beat of israeli rap.
nuri's a great person (& so's his girlfriend). i bet he'll grow up & get over his "party-boy wannabe" phase 6 months into harvard. when i made to leave the party, nuri gave me a tight hug & said seriously, "thanks for coming. it meant a lot to me. no, really, it did. to be surrounded tonight by people i care about," & as i turned to shut the door behind me, he smiled & said, "i'm so glad we're going to school together next year." hearing him say that made the whole commute in & out of the city worth it. truthfully, it made my day.
sort of like last friday. there was a little get-together at nuri's house & the reasons i decided to make the trip into the city at 11 pm were - 1) i love nuri, 2) it'd be my last free weekend in a long while 3) alcohol. i craved liquor so much that day. & did i drink when i got there?? NO. a sip here & there of rum & malibu. i poured beer (& vanilla extract! gross! hehe) into the pancake batter ken & mike made, ate a piece, gagged, & said no more. the rest of the time, i drank poland spring out of a measuring cup. slap me. by 1 am, i was so antsy & fed-up with my own abstinence, i was impatiently jumping up and down along w/ eric sporer & the subwoofer to the beat of israeli rap.
nuri's a great person (& so's his girlfriend). i bet he'll grow up & get over his "party-boy wannabe" phase 6 months into harvard. when i made to leave the party, nuri gave me a tight hug & said seriously, "thanks for coming. it meant a lot to me. no, really, it did. to be surrounded tonight by people i care about," & as i turned to shut the door behind me, he smiled & said, "i'm so glad we're going to school together next year." hearing him say that made the whole commute in & out of the city worth it. truthfully, it made my day.