That is some serious shit. What a tragedy... I'm sorry about your boss. =(
As for your breakup, whatever your reasons were, I know you'll be alright - you're a strong girl. It may make you want to rethink the no-smoking-something-illegal goal you have right now, but I'm also sure you have you have your reasons for not. Sometimes you just need to think with a sober mind, let things be 'real' for a change. I've made a slight transition myself, lately, and I have honestly not drank or smoked anything, illegal or not, in quite a while (a month, ha... but still...). I've found that there will be periods in your life when you can swing it in party-mode, but there are times when you just have to be clear-headed.
You seem to be going through some tough shit, girly. My boyfriend just got a job where he'll be working nights and weekends, so although it sucks that I'll rarely see him, I actually have some free-time now. *Hint* You should give me a call, or vice-versa. I'd be willing to pick you up, if your car is still giving you shit. ;)
Hope you feel better soon, lady... Give me a ring sometime.
You know how to make a person feel good, Ash =) I try to be strong... I try to remember WHY I broke up with him. I always thought it was easier to be mad at someone than to be miserable over them. Like I told my mom, the bad times were really bad but the good times were really good. It's so much harder this relationship around because I became so dependent on him (for his love and company). We basically lived together and it was also my longest relationship. I felt like I had a connection with him that I've never felt before with anyone but unfortunately, his priorities are pretty fucked up. I was second to his drugs, and whatever else he wanted. It was a one-sided relationship, basically.
I know I'm probably still going to party here and now but you are right... I really needed to clear my head. It's funny... I put up with all of his shit until I finally got sober. It was then that I had the courage to break it off. It's nice to be in the clouds but it's no fun living that way constantly. Life is portrayed so differently....Sadly, some people have a harder and longer time finding that out.
I've been wanting to call you Ash but for some reason I can't bring myself to yet. I don't know why, maybe I fear that I'll bore you or something, LoL. Let me get a little more stable and then we HAVE to chill. I really appreciate your reassurance and comments. You've always been there for me even if it has been years since we've been close. I believe there are only two or three people like you in my life. By that I mean, you have never judged me and although our friendship isn't CLOSE, you will always be a friend. I've noticed that its become really hard to find a good friend... so, thank you again...
That is some serious shit. What a tragedy... I'm sorry about your boss. =(
As for your breakup, whatever your reasons were, I know you'll be alright - you're a strong girl. It may make you want to rethink the no-smoking-something-illegal goal you have right now, but I'm also sure you have you have your reasons for not. Sometimes you just need to think with a sober mind, let things be 'real' for a change. I've made a slight transition myself, lately, and I have honestly not drank or smoked anything, illegal or not, in quite a while (a month, ha... but still...). I've found that there will be periods in your life when you can swing it in party-mode, but there are times when you just have to be clear-headed.
You seem to be going through some tough shit, girly. My boyfriend just got a job where he'll be working nights and weekends, so although it sucks that I'll rarely see him, I actually have some free-time now. *Hint* You should give me a call, or vice-versa. I'd be willing to pick you up, if your car is still giving you shit. ;)
Hope you feel better soon, lady... Give me a ring sometime.
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I know I'm probably still going to party here and now but you are right... I really needed to clear my head. It's funny... I put up with all of his shit until I finally got sober. It was then that I had the courage to break it off. It's nice to be in the clouds but it's no fun living that way constantly. Life is portrayed so differently....Sadly, some people have a harder and longer time finding that out.
I've been wanting to call you Ash but for some reason I can't bring myself to yet. I don't know why, maybe I fear that I'll bore you or something, LoL. Let me get a little more stable and then we HAVE to chill. I really appreciate your reassurance and comments. You've always been there for me even if it has been years since we've been close. I believe there are only two or three people like you in my life. By that I mean, you have never judged me and although our friendship isn't CLOSE, you will always be a friend. I've noticed that its become really hard to find a good friend... so, thank you again...
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