College etc.
I never thought that I'd be having this much difficulty with college and college life. I really like college but it's so hard. I want to major in biology but I'm having so much difficulty with it that I'm thinking of changing my major. People keep telling me that the freshman bio course is really hard because they're trying to weed out people who want to go to med school/ be in the pharmacy program but I don't want to do either and I'm becoming frustrated with the class that's supposed to be my major. And just when I think I'm doing okay I learn that I am completely wrong and misguided. It's just very stressful and on top of all of that I'm stressed out by all of my other classes. I just hope that it gets easier.. not harder next semester. The whole having a social life is really hard too cause I have friends from back home and friends on my floor and ones that I've made that aren't either. I guess I'm better off that there's no boy in the picture otherwise I guess I'd be totally messed up. And it all comes back to me wishing that one thing were going right, the way I planned. I have a feeling that I'm going to start having to sacrifice some things so that I will do better in other areas. Less social time so that my grades get better. I already am cutting my social life really short as is. Bleh. I wish things were easy and simple. That way I wouldn't have so many problems and if I had problems they'd be easier to deal with. Everythings so uncertain, which bugs the crap out of me. Anyways, I'm just ranting and figured this was the best place. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. I just hope it's soon so I'm not caught in the dark for too long. I kind of deserve for things to be better, or get better. At least I really think I deserve that.