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My computer wouldn't start up. So I got a fancy new black MacBook. It rocks.
The weather is starting to get really lovely. I love fall. Everything seems more intense, both the good and the bad feelings seem amplified. Actually, everything also feels softened or something. That doesn't really make sense in a way.... but Fall does something to my vibration, it makes me feel sort of sad, but good. It's like I feel more aware of being a vulnerable, imperfect human and perpetually incomplete, but I feel more complete than usual, more comfortable in that state. Does that make sense?
I don't think you're supposed to feel complete. Complete = finished, done, nothing lacking, nothing left, no more growth... dead. Yes. We'll be complete when we're dead. Maybe that's what's so nice about Fall, when everything else dies. Even though we're afraid of death, we also crave it, we seek to be complete, it's natural to die. And it satisfies something when nature is completing something, dying. I don't know. I think too much and I should shut up. I can't describe anything right now anyway....
It's rainy and cold right now and I'm enjoying it. I'm going to make a pumpkin soup tonight. The store was out of canned pumpkin so I bought a real one. I've never cooked with a real pumpkin before... well, just the seeds. Mmmmm.
Also, I love the new Enslaved.
The weather is starting to get really lovely. I love fall. Everything seems more intense, both the good and the bad feelings seem amplified. Actually, everything also feels softened or something. That doesn't really make sense in a way.... but Fall does something to my vibration, it makes me feel sort of sad, but good. It's like I feel more aware of being a vulnerable, imperfect human and perpetually incomplete, but I feel more complete than usual, more comfortable in that state. Does that make sense?
I don't think you're supposed to feel complete. Complete = finished, done, nothing lacking, nothing left, no more growth... dead. Yes. We'll be complete when we're dead. Maybe that's what's so nice about Fall, when everything else dies. Even though we're afraid of death, we also crave it, we seek to be complete, it's natural to die. And it satisfies something when nature is completing something, dying. I don't know. I think too much and I should shut up. I can't describe anything right now anyway....
It's rainy and cold right now and I'm enjoying it. I'm going to make a pumpkin soup tonight. The store was out of canned pumpkin so I bought a real one. I've never cooked with a real pumpkin before... well, just the seeds. Mmmmm.
Also, I love the new Enslaved.