wondering
It's my brother's birthday today. He's 31. He'll be spending it in prison. Not for the first time. I remember talking to him on the phone a few years back and wishing him a happy birthday. He said, "at this point, it's just another day". I wondered what had happened to him. When did he become apathetic? I had never heard his voice with such a hollow tone. Everything spiraled out of control after I moved away from home- not that that's the cause, by any means. But I haven't been able to be around to see what's happening. Sometimes I call and he's doing well, has a job and is sober. Sometimes I call and he's in his addiction again, heading towards or in prison. I feel some guilt for my lack of involvement. Could I have made a difference?