Right Beside You
Title: Right Beside You
Author: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: R
Fandom: JE
Genre: Angst, I think.
Pairing: Kitayama Hiromitsu x Fujigaya Taisuke, Various x Fujigaya Taisuke
Warnings: Angst...doesn't really make sense...
Notes: Used the epsilon set from 1sentence but this is an unofficial claim.
Right Beside You
By Shattered Tenshi
045. Naked
Pressing his hand against the bare chest of Takizawa, Taisuke curled up a little closer to the other, even though he knew Takizawa's mind was elsewhere.
019. Soul
Every now and then, Taisuke would wonder where his soul had gone.
011. Blur
"Why can't Jun be like you?" Sho murmured into his ear, but Taisuke pretended his mind was still in a blur and couldn't hear the words.
027. Hide
Hiromitsu watched from afar, unseen by the two, as Yamashita's hand disappeared under Taisuke's shirt.
014. Command
"Tsubasa-nii!" Taisuke exclaimed happily into the phone, but his smile immediately faded when he heard Tsubasa's next words; "Taisuke, stop going to Takizawa?"
032. Eye
Wataru shook Taisuke hard, "Look at me in the eye, Tai-chan! Look at me!"
028. Fortune
The fortune cookie was crushed under his feet as Kamenashi pushed him further into the changing room, their lips still crushed against each other.
042. Bother
"Don't bother with me, Wataru," Taisuke whispered.
038. Wash
Despite knowing that Akanishi's offer of sharing the umbrella wasn't that simple, Taisuke went anyways, clinging on to his bag which contained his own umbrella.
005. Wrong
It might seem wrong to others, but Taisuke wrapped his arms around Akanishi's neck anyways and returned the kiss.
015. Hold
Lightly pushing Koyama's hand away from his wrist, Taisuke didn’t meet the other's eyes, mumbling, "I'm fine, Koyama-kun."
008. Thousand
Taisuke had lost count - maybe it has been over a thousand times already - not that it mattered to him as he rocked his hips back against Koki.
003. Young
Taking the can of juice from Taiga, Taisuke smiled softly and ruffled the younger one's hair, looking into the other's worried eyes, "Thank you, Taiga-kun..."
024. Now
A moan slipping from his lips, Taisuke tried his best to return the favour for Sho, pushing away other thoughts and focusing only on the moment now.
035. Sudden
Shoved against the wall, Taisuke could only bite down on his lip as Jun hissed at him, "Stay away from Sho."
009. King
When he first entered the jimusho, a smile from Takizawa made Taisuke felt like he was the king of the world, and he wondered when did that change.
047. Harm
A murmur, "You really should stop this, Tai-chan..." and Kawai's arms slid down from Taisuke's shoulders to somewhere lower.
002. Cool
"How can you remain so calm, seeing Tai-chan like that?" Wataru hissed at Hiromitsu.
029. Safe
Despite the fact that it was Wataru hugging him, Taisuke didn't feel safe and he wasn't sure why.
017. Vision
"You talk a lot like me," Kiriyama stared into Taisuke's eyes. "I like that."
001. Motion
Kiriyama moved quickly, Taisuke noted as he threw his head backwards with a small moan, shirt disappearing somewhere.
031. Book
Looking at Taisuke who was pretending to be absorbed with his study, Wataru gritted his teeth before letting out a sigh, "Tai-chan...you don't have to feel lonely..."
040. History
Maybe Taisuke had been trying to reach for something that he could never have and instead, was overwhelmed by a loneliness that he didn't know how to get rid of.
046. Drive
When Yamashita invited for a drive, Taisuke of course smiled and climbed into the car without hesitating.
006. Gentle
Still in their Hyakushiki uniforms, Shoon kissed Taisuke gently, unable to refuse the other's request.
020. Picture
At the scene before him, Totsuka pulled out his cellphone and dialed a number, "Hiro..."
016. Need
Taisuke had never thought about how someone near him might be all he needed.
012. Wait
Shine disappearing from his eyes, Taisuke put down his cellphone on top of the bar table, and waited for someone who might never show up.
030. Ghost
"Taisuke...sometimes, I think you're like a ghost," Goseki muttered.
018. Attention
Taisuke no longer could tell what kind of attention did he crave and why exactly he was doing this anymore.
037. Time
"Anything changed since we last talked?" But when Taisuke didn't answer him, Iida just sighed, "Taisuke, Wataru is worried about you..."
041. Power
Taisuke knew he couldn't complain Yamashita slammed into him hard, making him whimper softly.
036. Stop
Hiromitsu hugged Taisuke tightly, "When you feel lonely, don't go to others anymore Taisuke; only come to me..."
039. Torn
It wasn't like Taisuke didn't listen - there were moments where he would feel torn as to what to do.
022. Mad
"What do you know about me?" Taisuke cried out in anger. "Just stay away!"
044. Wall
"I feel like Fujigaya-kun is blocking me out," and Taisuke couldn't meet Ryutarou's eyes.
033. Never
Even though Taisuke wouldn't look at him, Hiromitsu made a promise, "I'll never leave you, Taisuke..."
043. God
Taisuke has been praying that nothing would change, but knew his prayer hasn't been heard when Takizawa pulled back and muttered, "Something's changed about you."
004. Last
Just when Taisuke thought it was going to be the last time Hiromitsu would try to change his mind, the other just kept on coming, no matter what.
034. Sing
Humming softly, Tsubasa gathered Taisuke into his arms and murmured, "Stop this and go to the person that cares about you the most, Taisuke..."
025. Shadow
Holding back on making any sounds as they remained in the shadows of the backstage, Taisuke wondered why Hiromitsu came to his mind as Koki bit down his earlobe.
007. One
Taisuke wasn't sure when it happened, but he started to go to Hiromitsu more and more, until Hiromitsu was the only one left.
010. Learn
To tell the truth, Taisuke was afraid of learning what that might mean.
023. Child
At times, Hiromitsu would cuddle him like a child and sing softly into Taisuke's ear.
021. Fool
At times, Taisuke believed that Hiromitsu was a fool to promise him such things when there was no way the other could keep those promises.
049. Hunger
Rubbing his eyes, Taisuke walked into the kitchen when Hiromitsu suddenly offered him a plate of breakfast food without needing him to ask.
048. Precious
Perhaps, Hiromitsu was the only one outside his family who treated him that way, like he was precious and valued, slightly different from how his friends would treat him.
013. Change
"I don't love you," Taisuke said, words cruel and cold, but then he smiled slightly, reaching out towards Hiromitsu with his hand, "I can try and learn though?"
026. Goodbye
Taisuke typed and sent out a few mails; all saying good-bye but none were addressed to Hiromitsu.
050. Believe
Maybe - Taisuke gripped Hiromitsu's hand - it was okay to believe those promises, after all.
Author's Notes: More angst! //whacked// ...I think I just wanted to write all/Taisuke really. There was no real reason or thinking behind this. 8D; So uh, don't ask me about what's happening or what the hell I was thinking...because I probably wasn't doing that much. >>'' This Taisuke is even worse than my emo!Taisuke in Tears...-____-;;
Ugh, whatever, I don't know what else to say. My brain is kind of dead at the moment. I shouldn't have attempted to write that stupid final paper.
Comments are love and appreciated~
Author: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: R
Fandom: JE
Genre: Angst, I think.
Pairing: Kitayama Hiromitsu x Fujigaya Taisuke, Various x Fujigaya Taisuke
Warnings: Angst...doesn't really make sense...
Notes: Used the epsilon set from 1sentence but this is an unofficial claim.
Right Beside You
By Shattered Tenshi
045. Naked
Pressing his hand against the bare chest of Takizawa, Taisuke curled up a little closer to the other, even though he knew Takizawa's mind was elsewhere.
019. Soul
Every now and then, Taisuke would wonder where his soul had gone.
011. Blur
"Why can't Jun be like you?" Sho murmured into his ear, but Taisuke pretended his mind was still in a blur and couldn't hear the words.
027. Hide
Hiromitsu watched from afar, unseen by the two, as Yamashita's hand disappeared under Taisuke's shirt.
014. Command
"Tsubasa-nii!" Taisuke exclaimed happily into the phone, but his smile immediately faded when he heard Tsubasa's next words; "Taisuke, stop going to Takizawa?"
032. Eye
Wataru shook Taisuke hard, "Look at me in the eye, Tai-chan! Look at me!"
028. Fortune
The fortune cookie was crushed under his feet as Kamenashi pushed him further into the changing room, their lips still crushed against each other.
042. Bother
"Don't bother with me, Wataru," Taisuke whispered.
038. Wash
Despite knowing that Akanishi's offer of sharing the umbrella wasn't that simple, Taisuke went anyways, clinging on to his bag which contained his own umbrella.
005. Wrong
It might seem wrong to others, but Taisuke wrapped his arms around Akanishi's neck anyways and returned the kiss.
015. Hold
Lightly pushing Koyama's hand away from his wrist, Taisuke didn’t meet the other's eyes, mumbling, "I'm fine, Koyama-kun."
008. Thousand
Taisuke had lost count - maybe it has been over a thousand times already - not that it mattered to him as he rocked his hips back against Koki.
003. Young
Taking the can of juice from Taiga, Taisuke smiled softly and ruffled the younger one's hair, looking into the other's worried eyes, "Thank you, Taiga-kun..."
024. Now
A moan slipping from his lips, Taisuke tried his best to return the favour for Sho, pushing away other thoughts and focusing only on the moment now.
035. Sudden
Shoved against the wall, Taisuke could only bite down on his lip as Jun hissed at him, "Stay away from Sho."
009. King
When he first entered the jimusho, a smile from Takizawa made Taisuke felt like he was the king of the world, and he wondered when did that change.
047. Harm
A murmur, "You really should stop this, Tai-chan..." and Kawai's arms slid down from Taisuke's shoulders to somewhere lower.
002. Cool
"How can you remain so calm, seeing Tai-chan like that?" Wataru hissed at Hiromitsu.
029. Safe
Despite the fact that it was Wataru hugging him, Taisuke didn't feel safe and he wasn't sure why.
017. Vision
"You talk a lot like me," Kiriyama stared into Taisuke's eyes. "I like that."
001. Motion
Kiriyama moved quickly, Taisuke noted as he threw his head backwards with a small moan, shirt disappearing somewhere.
031. Book
Looking at Taisuke who was pretending to be absorbed with his study, Wataru gritted his teeth before letting out a sigh, "Tai-chan...you don't have to feel lonely..."
040. History
Maybe Taisuke had been trying to reach for something that he could never have and instead, was overwhelmed by a loneliness that he didn't know how to get rid of.
046. Drive
When Yamashita invited for a drive, Taisuke of course smiled and climbed into the car without hesitating.
006. Gentle
Still in their Hyakushiki uniforms, Shoon kissed Taisuke gently, unable to refuse the other's request.
020. Picture
At the scene before him, Totsuka pulled out his cellphone and dialed a number, "Hiro..."
016. Need
Taisuke had never thought about how someone near him might be all he needed.
012. Wait
Shine disappearing from his eyes, Taisuke put down his cellphone on top of the bar table, and waited for someone who might never show up.
030. Ghost
"Taisuke...sometimes, I think you're like a ghost," Goseki muttered.
018. Attention
Taisuke no longer could tell what kind of attention did he crave and why exactly he was doing this anymore.
037. Time
"Anything changed since we last talked?" But when Taisuke didn't answer him, Iida just sighed, "Taisuke, Wataru is worried about you..."
041. Power
Taisuke knew he couldn't complain Yamashita slammed into him hard, making him whimper softly.
036. Stop
Hiromitsu hugged Taisuke tightly, "When you feel lonely, don't go to others anymore Taisuke; only come to me..."
039. Torn
It wasn't like Taisuke didn't listen - there were moments where he would feel torn as to what to do.
022. Mad
"What do you know about me?" Taisuke cried out in anger. "Just stay away!"
044. Wall
"I feel like Fujigaya-kun is blocking me out," and Taisuke couldn't meet Ryutarou's eyes.
033. Never
Even though Taisuke wouldn't look at him, Hiromitsu made a promise, "I'll never leave you, Taisuke..."
043. God
Taisuke has been praying that nothing would change, but knew his prayer hasn't been heard when Takizawa pulled back and muttered, "Something's changed about you."
004. Last
Just when Taisuke thought it was going to be the last time Hiromitsu would try to change his mind, the other just kept on coming, no matter what.
034. Sing
Humming softly, Tsubasa gathered Taisuke into his arms and murmured, "Stop this and go to the person that cares about you the most, Taisuke..."
025. Shadow
Holding back on making any sounds as they remained in the shadows of the backstage, Taisuke wondered why Hiromitsu came to his mind as Koki bit down his earlobe.
007. One
Taisuke wasn't sure when it happened, but he started to go to Hiromitsu more and more, until Hiromitsu was the only one left.
010. Learn
To tell the truth, Taisuke was afraid of learning what that might mean.
023. Child
At times, Hiromitsu would cuddle him like a child and sing softly into Taisuke's ear.
021. Fool
At times, Taisuke believed that Hiromitsu was a fool to promise him such things when there was no way the other could keep those promises.
049. Hunger
Rubbing his eyes, Taisuke walked into the kitchen when Hiromitsu suddenly offered him a plate of breakfast food without needing him to ask.
048. Precious
Perhaps, Hiromitsu was the only one outside his family who treated him that way, like he was precious and valued, slightly different from how his friends would treat him.
013. Change
"I don't love you," Taisuke said, words cruel and cold, but then he smiled slightly, reaching out towards Hiromitsu with his hand, "I can try and learn though?"
026. Goodbye
Taisuke typed and sent out a few mails; all saying good-bye but none were addressed to Hiromitsu.
050. Believe
Maybe - Taisuke gripped Hiromitsu's hand - it was okay to believe those promises, after all.
Author's Notes: More angst! //whacked// ...I think I just wanted to write all/Taisuke really. There was no real reason or thinking behind this. 8D; So uh, don't ask me about what's happening or what the hell I was thinking...because I probably wasn't doing that much. >>'' This Taisuke is even worse than my emo!Taisuke in Tears...-____-;;
Ugh, whatever, I don't know what else to say. My brain is kind of dead at the moment. I shouldn't have attempted to write that stupid final paper.
Comments are love and appreciated~