the start anew
my life is going perks of being a wallflower style. but you know what? i think i like it.
it's so cool to have a group of people to chill with again. and to be accepted for just being me and automatically being brought into the group and being able to talk to them about everything and anything and they are supportive and there for me no matter what. why didn't i find these people sooner? i feel like they are all just like me. and it's great.
but now that i'm with these people i'm starting to question who it is i actually am. how long have i been putting on convers and giving people what they want to see just out of my longing to have friends? now that i finally feel like i can openly be exactly who i am, i wonder, who is it that i am? how do i know what to live for and how to make decisions if i'm not sure who the person is making the choices and living.
but you know, for the first time in my life, i'm not getting anxious worrying about them turning against me. i can't explain it. but that is how i feel. and it's great. i feel like i'm finally a part of something. i finally feel like i belong. and i will do anything to stay this way.
and so, it is here that i begin to present to you my "perks of being a wallflower"-like adventures. (i swear if i was a guy i would be charlie)
[i have to at least start SOME summer reading so i will begin to post the adventures soon]
sneak preview:
christining the source. and the side of the freeway about 5 times. base camp.
stay tuned......