This isn't me, i'm not mechanical.
SO many things are different.
I don't write in here anymore, I'm not even too sure why. I really like the fact that i've had this thing for some odd years now.. and.. not too long ago I went back a year or two and looked at what I was doing that exact day... a few years ago. It was actually really cool. I'm glad I have this. Everything is so different of course, but I seemed happier.
I'm just sitting here, its about 1:00 drinking tea & have a virginia slim(!?) haha (I'm trying to quit smoking, it's so disgusting.. but i love it so much. I don't know how many times i've tried). Just woke up - I have some really lame cold, it sucks. I've been having crazy dreams lately. Mostly about Nick... and my old friends. It's even weird to say that but... yeah, my old girls. Brianne went away to college? It's just weird. No goodbyes. I think being sick causes you to have even stranger dreams. Well, I always do but that's how it made me feel today.
Anyway, everything is pretty odd in my life at this point. I'm eighteen years old... my hair is no longer ass long. It's very short, still black but up to my chin? It's sick, I need long hair. Um, i've taken out some piercings... I just have my belly twice, new* weird industrial exp., tragus. I do have 3 tattoos though, now. A huge cross on my neck/back that means....alot. Also on my lower back (what marilyn msn has on his arm) bulls eye w/ tentacles. <3 & I just recently got some swirl thing on my foot with dots.. just drawn on my foot. OH...I no longer draw on my eyebrows.. ever since I started working at this hair salon.. they thought I would look so much better with real eyebrows. I think they look fucking awful. I'm giving it a little bit longer and then i'm probably going to take care of them and fix them how I like them.
I'm NOT with Nick anymore, he's a piece of..... I brake up with him and he goes onto a Paki girl? That's not what I expected but I really don't know.. everything and everyone are full of suprises. Just gotta shake it off no matter how much I cry. Stop being weak.
My mother got re-married. We are moving into Mark's house in a month or two. They are re-doing it. They got married in Hawaii. My father is no longer with Donna.. he lives on his own in a condo. Everything is just really weird. Oh, and I was going to beauty school but i've been having anxiety attacks and I guess i've just decided to put that off... and take some time or whatever. I don't know what i'm going to do. I don't like it. I wonder if anyone even looks at this thing ever?
I hope to write more... writing does make me feel better.
Time to go to work in a while.
I don't write in here anymore, I'm not even too sure why. I really like the fact that i've had this thing for some odd years now.. and.. not too long ago I went back a year or two and looked at what I was doing that exact day... a few years ago. It was actually really cool. I'm glad I have this. Everything is so different of course, but I seemed happier.
I'm just sitting here, its about 1:00 drinking tea & have a virginia slim(!?) haha (I'm trying to quit smoking, it's so disgusting.. but i love it so much. I don't know how many times i've tried). Just woke up - I have some really lame cold, it sucks. I've been having crazy dreams lately. Mostly about Nick... and my old friends. It's even weird to say that but... yeah, my old girls. Brianne went away to college? It's just weird. No goodbyes. I think being sick causes you to have even stranger dreams. Well, I always do but that's how it made me feel today.
Anyway, everything is pretty odd in my life at this point. I'm eighteen years old... my hair is no longer ass long. It's very short, still black but up to my chin? It's sick, I need long hair. Um, i've taken out some piercings... I just have my belly twice, new* weird industrial exp., tragus. I do have 3 tattoos though, now. A huge cross on my neck/back that means....alot. Also on my lower back (what marilyn msn has on his arm) bulls eye w/ tentacles. <3 & I just recently got some swirl thing on my foot with dots.. just drawn on my foot. OH...I no longer draw on my eyebrows.. ever since I started working at this hair salon.. they thought I would look so much better with real eyebrows. I think they look fucking awful. I'm giving it a little bit longer and then i'm probably going to take care of them and fix them how I like them.
I'm NOT with Nick anymore, he's a piece of..... I brake up with him and he goes onto a Paki girl? That's not what I expected but I really don't know.. everything and everyone are full of suprises. Just gotta shake it off no matter how much I cry. Stop being weak.
My mother got re-married. We are moving into Mark's house in a month or two. They are re-doing it. They got married in Hawaii. My father is no longer with Donna.. he lives on his own in a condo. Everything is just really weird. Oh, and I was going to beauty school but i've been having anxiety attacks and I guess i've just decided to put that off... and take some time or whatever. I don't know what i'm going to do. I don't like it. I wonder if anyone even looks at this thing ever?
I hope to write more... writing does make me feel better.
Time to go to work in a while.