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so what's happening with me right now?
why do i spend my days in a daze, & my nights crying myself into nightmares?
i'm not doing well. & i'm not happy. again.
it's a fucking rollercoaster of emotion. nothing ever changes.
i've started cutting again. after everything i said... hypocrit.
but right now, i don't care. it helps, in its sick fucked up little way.
i don't want to stop. i want to get worse. but something is stopping me.
i guess that's a good thing.
i'm tired. i slept all afternoon.
melancholy.
xx
why do i spend my days in a daze, & my nights crying myself into nightmares?
i'm not doing well. & i'm not happy. again.
it's a fucking rollercoaster of emotion. nothing ever changes.
i've started cutting again. after everything i said... hypocrit.
but right now, i don't care. it helps, in its sick fucked up little way.
i don't want to stop. i want to get worse. but something is stopping me.
i guess that's a good thing.
i'm tired. i slept all afternoon.
melancholy.
xx