Anxious and unhappy!
Money issues seem to be cropping up. I had to have blood test done and its gonna cost me like fucking $139....Spaz has to get spayed and thats gonna cost like $200 and then this trip to Iowa, which is TOTALLY needed is gonna cost a few hundred so we're like...nearing the thousand dollar mark so......There's this whole not being sure about the moving working the way its supposed to..I might not be able to buy a bunch of the actual moving things I need...And so I'm mindfucked.
Mat got to Seattle and I'm pissy because I had to dish out like $300 to make sure it happened and yeah his mom is supposed to pay me back but still its like: Talk about stress out factor.
On top of that I'm on Prednisone for my knee and let me tell you...talk about a steroid that fucks with your emotions and ability to be happy.
Mat is just...pushing my buttons the wrong way right now. Its all: Oh I'll still be all amazing and shit
And no...I keep getting blown off and fucked over and I'm seriously stressing hardcore bad. I'm crying all the time and I'm angry and I'm fucking fucked up.
I can't do this.....
UGH! Stress and crying and not happy and not okay.....
I'mma go die for a bit.
Mat got to Seattle and I'm pissy because I had to dish out like $300 to make sure it happened and yeah his mom is supposed to pay me back but still its like: Talk about stress out factor.
On top of that I'm on Prednisone for my knee and let me tell you...talk about a steroid that fucks with your emotions and ability to be happy.
Mat is just...pushing my buttons the wrong way right now. Its all: Oh I'll still be all amazing and shit
And no...I keep getting blown off and fucked over and I'm seriously stressing hardcore bad. I'm crying all the time and I'm angry and I'm fucking fucked up.
I can't do this.....
UGH! Stress and crying and not happy and not okay.....
I'mma go die for a bit.