Time really does fly when you're having fun!
It's like 2 in the morning and I am not a bit tired...I guess that's what happens when you sleep the whole day.
But yeah, I'm finally able to say that I am out of High School for good and I am a Graduate from Castle High School =) As weird as it sounds, I know I'm going to miss it alot. I just cant imagine not roaming the halls with my friends, and not being late to classes, and all the fun I had...it all seems so surreal. And it all happened too fast. Everyone always told me to "live it up" and now I know why. Everything just happens so fast and time really does fly when your having fun! It's actually kind of scary now. I mean, I am growing up and I dont feel ready at all. Blah!
On another note, I'm very confused...go figure!! lol, I always am, so I guess I should be use to it by now. But it seems like my tollerance for people is going down, drastically. For instance, if I feel someone is bullshitting me for whatever reason...I will not hesitate to push them aside. Especially guys. I'm not here to put up with lies and bullshit, and I'll let you know. I've had about all I can take, and I'll definitly let you know what's up. And right now I cant help but think someone is bullshitting me again, and I'm not going to allow that. If I feel vulnerable to a certain situation, I'm going to get out of it. I just know things could never work so I need to get out before it gets any worse. I just hate being the "bitch" in the situation. But I'm not putting up with any shit anymore. None. Ever.
I know that last paragraph makes no sence to anyone, but I know exactly what it means, and that's all that matters. I'm not going to go into great detail about my life. It's my business, but atleast it makes me feel better to atleast get the gist of it out.
Anyways...my Mom is still in the Hospital and I miss her like crazy. It really hurt that my Mom wasnt able to come to my graduation...but I guess that is just something I am unable to control. I have no idea how long she is going to be there...and neither do the doctors. She is still very unstable. I havent talked to her in a week but I hear the messages she leaves on our recorder and I can just tell. Everytime I try to call her back she is unable to talk, because they have certain times they can talk, which is hardly ever...and it seems like everytime she calls, something prevents us from talking. I always miss her calls and it is really starting to irritate me. I am unable to visit her too...even though I'm 18 she cant have any visitors until she is announced "ready" by the doctors. Whatever. I just miss my Mom more than anything and I want her back home. =(
But yeah, I'm finally able to say that I am out of High School for good and I am a Graduate from Castle High School =) As weird as it sounds, I know I'm going to miss it alot. I just cant imagine not roaming the halls with my friends, and not being late to classes, and all the fun I had...it all seems so surreal. And it all happened too fast. Everyone always told me to "live it up" and now I know why. Everything just happens so fast and time really does fly when your having fun! It's actually kind of scary now. I mean, I am growing up and I dont feel ready at all. Blah!
On another note, I'm very confused...go figure!! lol, I always am, so I guess I should be use to it by now. But it seems like my tollerance for people is going down, drastically. For instance, if I feel someone is bullshitting me for whatever reason...I will not hesitate to push them aside. Especially guys. I'm not here to put up with lies and bullshit, and I'll let you know. I've had about all I can take, and I'll definitly let you know what's up. And right now I cant help but think someone is bullshitting me again, and I'm not going to allow that. If I feel vulnerable to a certain situation, I'm going to get out of it. I just know things could never work so I need to get out before it gets any worse. I just hate being the "bitch" in the situation. But I'm not putting up with any shit anymore. None. Ever.
I know that last paragraph makes no sence to anyone, but I know exactly what it means, and that's all that matters. I'm not going to go into great detail about my life. It's my business, but atleast it makes me feel better to atleast get the gist of it out.
Anyways...my Mom is still in the Hospital and I miss her like crazy. It really hurt that my Mom wasnt able to come to my graduation...but I guess that is just something I am unable to control. I have no idea how long she is going to be there...and neither do the doctors. She is still very unstable. I havent talked to her in a week but I hear the messages she leaves on our recorder and I can just tell. Everytime I try to call her back she is unable to talk, because they have certain times they can talk, which is hardly ever...and it seems like everytime she calls, something prevents us from talking. I always miss her calls and it is really starting to irritate me. I am unable to visit her too...even though I'm 18 she cant have any visitors until she is announced "ready" by the doctors. Whatever. I just miss my Mom more than anything and I want her back home. =(