In need of a conclusion
I need to get out of here. This place, this town, this area, this region, this is suffocating me. It's toxic. Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything drastic or dangerous. I am so sick of this routine, regimented lifestyle. I'm so sick of going to school, taking notes, taking quizzes, all the while digesting jack shit. I feel like I've hit a mental all time low. I literally need to leave this place. It just hit me today. Maybe it's been building up, but this pent up frustration just found its release. I can't stand anything. I dislike almost every class, my attitude is horrible, I don't want to learn. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to see the gray, melancholy, depressingly mundane hallways of Pentucket anymore. I feel like such an asshole. A lost bastard that has no idea what the hell he's ever doing. What is this life? There must be something so much greater than this constant, never ending cycle. Get up, eat, school (kill me now). I don't even care about a vacation. I don't. I need a few days in a drastically different atmosphere. A location where I don't know anyone, not a single person. People who care about things besides their materialistic bullshit. Ya, I know, I buy nice clothes, I watch MTV, etc etc. But guess what. I do other shit! I actually know what the fuck is going on in the world. I understand political events, environmental issues, etc. I watch "mindless shit" to escape from my mind. I read, I write, I discuss things. What makes me mad is when people just aren't willing to listen to anything important or pertinent to our lives. It isn't about your cell phone, pending comments on your crazy party myspace pics, your new shiny lip gloss (alright I'm running out of things now). Go look up something important, actually give a shit about what happens. I'm so done with this place. Get me out.