Hello.
LET'S START OVER.
Life has been such a blur over the past six months. I've experienced a lot of sadness, happiness, and everything in between. It's close enough to the new year where I feel like I can just start a brand new chapter in my life.
I apologize for not commenting much lately. There have been a lot of things in my life keeping me busy. This journal will no longer be friends only because, well, there's really nothing to hide.
That being said, let's proceed to the real updates.
Do I look exhausted? Probably because I am. The semester is finally over and I can breathe a sigh of relief. I'm back home in Dallas, trying to regain most of the sleep hours I've lost. I'm okay with not being very productive because, well, I'm on a break. I've been pretty sick. I even lost my voice for a little bit, but I've been taking a lot of medicine so I can get better soon. I don't really want to be sick the whole break. I've kind of been moping around the house lately. I don't really have the energy and I don't have an appetite, so that's not helping. I haven't eaten anything substantial in a while. My mother says I look like a homeless person. The fact that I walk around with 6 layers on because it's so cold just adds to that. Also, I've been re-admitted to UT Austin for the spring semester, which I am very much looking forward to. Community college is just not for me. They were even nice enough to reinstate my financial aid, including all of my scholarships and grants that I left behind from last semester. I feel pretty lucky in that they didn't give me much trouble. I usually have such a difficult time trying to work things out with the Office of Financial Aid. Besides that, nothing has really been happening except Jay and I are pretty much over. I let it go the first time we had this whole conflict and thought I would give the relationship another chance, but it just didn't end up working out. I don't know whether I should be sad or angry, but I figure that's just a waste of my energy. To love and to lose are all part of life. I don't want to come off like I didn't love him or that I don't care. Because I very much did. It's just that...I don't want to dwell. Hopefully, I'll find someone/thing better and I hope he's happy with what he's got. The holiday season will be a little lonely, not having anyone (romantically). But I'll live. It's not like it's the first time. I'm looking forward to going back to Austin and starting over again.
Do I look exhausted? Probably because I am. The semester is finally over and I can breathe a sigh of relief. I'm back home in Dallas, trying to regain most of the sleep hours I've lost. I'm okay with not being very productive because, well, I'm on a break. I've been pretty sick. I even lost my voice for a little bit, but I've been taking a lot of medicine so I can get better soon. I don't really want to be sick the whole break. I've kind of been moping around the house lately. I don't really have the energy and I don't have an appetite, so that's not helping. I haven't eaten anything substantial in a while. My mother says I look like a homeless person. The fact that I walk around with 6 layers on because it's so cold just adds to that. Also, I've been re-admitted to UT Austin for the spring semester, which I am very much looking forward to. Community college is just not for me. They were even nice enough to reinstate my financial aid, including all of my scholarships and grants that I left behind from last semester. I feel pretty lucky in that they didn't give me much trouble. I usually have such a difficult time trying to work things out with the Office of Financial Aid. Besides that, nothing has really been happening except Jay and I are pretty much over. I let it go the first time we had this whole conflict and thought I would give the relationship another chance, but it just didn't end up working out. I don't know whether I should be sad or angry, but I figure that's just a waste of my energy. To love and to lose are all part of life. I don't want to come off like I didn't love him or that I don't care. Because I very much did. It's just that...I don't want to dwell. Hopefully, I'll find someone/thing better and I hope he's happy with what he's got. The holiday season will be a little lonely, not having anyone (romantically). But I'll live. It's not like it's the first time. I'm looking forward to going back to Austin and starting over again.