Is all that needs to be said really nothing?
2am:
You were down tonight so I went right over there. I told you I was making you get up and taking you to the movies. I ended up talking you into seeing 'Catch Me If You Can.' (You were reluctant because I had already seen it, but I knew you would love it.) You were in exactly the state of mind I had been in lately (which is not a great place to be). I told you that you were my reason to be up. That's the truth. I told you that seeing you where I have been makes me capable to lift you out of it-or at least try to. You seemed a bit astonished--touched. God, I feel so much empathy... Why am I so deeply rooted into you? I have never experienced anything like this in my life. We talked about wounds. About time. For once I felt like I was on the same page with someone--not simply wanting be--its so much more than that.
When we got into the theater you said you are just waiting for some things to happen--fall into place. Of course I know what I wanted that to mean...as to if it pertained to my desire, I am not entirely certain. Only hopeful. My response: The best things in life are the ones waited for. After all, doesn't waiting increase the abundance of desire, love, loyalty, strength, devotion and thoughtfulness? It is then that I realized I also will have to wait. I was so ready to jump into this, but nothing is quite clear yet. All I know is that there is so much there and I truly believe that will grow even more over the next several months. Only make us stronger. Then why should I expect any more now? I should just let it be and not push. I hope in this manner that things will come to. We both got postponed. Lord may that be all because I cannot lose this one. I am not sure why, but nothing has ever felt this right. It has been there from the start. Oh, love how I fear thee too late. I gave in at day one without comprehensive knowledge of it...only my heart knew. Me, only deceiving myself for so long.
The movie portrays the undeniable fact that it is always easier to live the lie. I have been doing this all too long-on and off-like fighting some kind of virus. Infection. I do not think it ever completely goes away. Lately I have felt as if it had succeeded and was attempting to find my feet, the ground, again. Not only is it easier living the lie...It is easier not living at all. That's it! And although this will sound like I am living vicariously, which is only half true (on so many other levels I am living), YOU BRING ME TO LIFE! I have no choice but to come alive with you.
You thanked me and said I helped uplift you. You said you owed me. Perhaps what I should have said is that you have long repaid me. You have likewise always there when I need it. There is a sense of balance here. It feels right. Possibly not ready now, but I shall then wait. Perhaps all that needed to be said wasn't--for a higher purpose. Feeling through silence. We looked over at each other and smiled. I love your eyes. That is all that needed to be said; Nothing.
You were down tonight so I went right over there. I told you I was making you get up and taking you to the movies. I ended up talking you into seeing 'Catch Me If You Can.' (You were reluctant because I had already seen it, but I knew you would love it.) You were in exactly the state of mind I had been in lately (which is not a great place to be). I told you that you were my reason to be up. That's the truth. I told you that seeing you where I have been makes me capable to lift you out of it-or at least try to. You seemed a bit astonished--touched. God, I feel so much empathy... Why am I so deeply rooted into you? I have never experienced anything like this in my life. We talked about wounds. About time. For once I felt like I was on the same page with someone--not simply wanting be--its so much more than that.
When we got into the theater you said you are just waiting for some things to happen--fall into place. Of course I know what I wanted that to mean...as to if it pertained to my desire, I am not entirely certain. Only hopeful. My response: The best things in life are the ones waited for. After all, doesn't waiting increase the abundance of desire, love, loyalty, strength, devotion and thoughtfulness? It is then that I realized I also will have to wait. I was so ready to jump into this, but nothing is quite clear yet. All I know is that there is so much there and I truly believe that will grow even more over the next several months. Only make us stronger. Then why should I expect any more now? I should just let it be and not push. I hope in this manner that things will come to. We both got postponed. Lord may that be all because I cannot lose this one. I am not sure why, but nothing has ever felt this right. It has been there from the start. Oh, love how I fear thee too late. I gave in at day one without comprehensive knowledge of it...only my heart knew. Me, only deceiving myself for so long.
The movie portrays the undeniable fact that it is always easier to live the lie. I have been doing this all too long-on and off-like fighting some kind of virus. Infection. I do not think it ever completely goes away. Lately I have felt as if it had succeeded and was attempting to find my feet, the ground, again. Not only is it easier living the lie...It is easier not living at all. That's it! And although this will sound like I am living vicariously, which is only half true (on so many other levels I am living), YOU BRING ME TO LIFE! I have no choice but to come alive with you.
You thanked me and said I helped uplift you. You said you owed me. Perhaps what I should have said is that you have long repaid me. You have likewise always there when I need it. There is a sense of balance here. It feels right. Possibly not ready now, but I shall then wait. Perhaps all that needed to be said wasn't--for a higher purpose. Feeling through silence. We looked over at each other and smiled. I love your eyes. That is all that needed to be said; Nothing.