Seldom do I sleep. I never want to see another ricola again after this week...merh.
How pitiful am I! I woke up on Friday morning and noticed it hurt to swallow. By Saturday it got even worse. Now I am living off of hot tea and ricola...unable to take anything else in. Bah! I just got over a damn cold and now I have thissssss!@#$%^ I had to lay low all weekend and cancel all my plans. I think I am going to die. I can barely breathe now and I have completely lost my voice. I suppose that is why I am complaining...The doctor said it was viral (which means I can't get any damn meds) so basically I am SOL! God hates me. The doc said to come back in a few days so he can draw blood. He and my Mom think I have mono. Lucky me. I just wish it didn't happen this week. Truly, there is no really great time to get sick but I missed out this weekend and I have finals and classes to teach this week--an avoidable predicament.
On a MUCH brighter note...I saw my favorite band last Saturday. Yup, Rx Bandits to the extreme. Jaime and I totally lost control of ourselves--very typical. Its so crazy. I have been seeing them for years and last Saturday I became all nostalgic. They get me like nothing else. Its a very spiritual thing for me. I feel cleansed.
Speaking of last Saturday I had the craziest night. Well, unexpected I should say. I was on my way home from Cory's house and C.C. called me. I ended up going over to his place. We watched some great ol' movies and ended up getting closer and closer. We have become extremely good friends over the past few weeks. He rocks my world. Needless to say I didn't end up leaving until 6:30am. I won't ever forget that drive home...as the sun was rising. It felt very nice.
I talked to Jake for a few minutes last night and Saturday. I miss that boy. Although our time was scarce--our words were all the more genuine. I can tell he's not doing so swell. Hopefully we will get to catch up soon. I'm bummed he can't some down from SD this month:(. If you read this dear, know you are constantly in my thoughts and I know everything will work out. Just wait until January (maybe?) ! I can't wait to give you your B'day present and take you out to dinner. It will be fun. I'll wear my dress.
Sheesh. I cannot wait until this week is over. After I get finals out of the way I will feel very relieved. I do indeed have a lot to do over break but I just need to get away. I wasn't doing so well emotionally recently but I have been feeling great lately--now if I could only rid my body of this damn virus! I am at a point in my life where I think I just want to be alone. I haven't been for a while. I was trying too hard. To not be. To not think. To remove myself. And it was working. I just couldn't handle any more of the hurt. The risk. But now I don't even care. Just be. I am becoming increasingly busier and wrapped up in so many amazing things I just don't need to worry. I'm having a good time. Besides the stuff I have to do for dance over break, I just want to be with Sophia. I need to hang out with a few other pep but man do I miss that girl. Winter always reminds me of her. That's when we became the best of friends. Cory leaves this Friday. That is going to be weird. I guess we will see what happens. I love you baby!
On a MUCH brighter note...I saw my favorite band last Saturday. Yup, Rx Bandits to the extreme. Jaime and I totally lost control of ourselves--very typical. Its so crazy. I have been seeing them for years and last Saturday I became all nostalgic. They get me like nothing else. Its a very spiritual thing for me. I feel cleansed.
Speaking of last Saturday I had the craziest night. Well, unexpected I should say. I was on my way home from Cory's house and C.C. called me. I ended up going over to his place. We watched some great ol' movies and ended up getting closer and closer. We have become extremely good friends over the past few weeks. He rocks my world. Needless to say I didn't end up leaving until 6:30am. I won't ever forget that drive home...as the sun was rising. It felt very nice.
I talked to Jake for a few minutes last night and Saturday. I miss that boy. Although our time was scarce--our words were all the more genuine. I can tell he's not doing so swell. Hopefully we will get to catch up soon. I'm bummed he can't some down from SD this month:(. If you read this dear, know you are constantly in my thoughts and I know everything will work out. Just wait until January (maybe?) ! I can't wait to give you your B'day present and take you out to dinner. It will be fun. I'll wear my dress.
Sheesh. I cannot wait until this week is over. After I get finals out of the way I will feel very relieved. I do indeed have a lot to do over break but I just need to get away. I wasn't doing so well emotionally recently but I have been feeling great lately--now if I could only rid my body of this damn virus! I am at a point in my life where I think I just want to be alone. I haven't been for a while. I was trying too hard. To not be. To not think. To remove myself. And it was working. I just couldn't handle any more of the hurt. The risk. But now I don't even care. Just be. I am becoming increasingly busier and wrapped up in so many amazing things I just don't need to worry. I'm having a good time. Besides the stuff I have to do for dance over break, I just want to be with Sophia. I need to hang out with a few other pep but man do I miss that girl. Winter always reminds me of her. That's when we became the best of friends. Cory leaves this Friday. That is going to be weird. I guess we will see what happens. I love you baby!