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sometimes i wonder if i really do prefer tragedy. if i ever really can be happy. or satisfied.
maybe death is what it takes to make me realize im alive. to make me feel it.
maybe i cant realize what i have unless you take it away over and over.
maybe i dont know what to do with kids but maybe that will get better.
maybe i will be here long enough that ill get stuck here. fear number one.
i have to get contacts because i cant read a foot in front of my face.
maybe people shouldnt be so rude.
maybe i should do something with my life.
maybe it's not supposed to be this hard.
maybe i dont know why i feel guilty but i do.
maybe i was too young.
maybe i wish it didnt have to happen that way.
maybe its my dads birthday and i miss him.
and i dont know how to deal with things at all.
but i have come a long way.
maybe death is what it takes to make me realize im alive. to make me feel it.
maybe i cant realize what i have unless you take it away over and over.
maybe i dont know what to do with kids but maybe that will get better.
maybe i will be here long enough that ill get stuck here. fear number one.
i have to get contacts because i cant read a foot in front of my face.
maybe people shouldnt be so rude.
maybe i should do something with my life.
maybe it's not supposed to be this hard.
maybe i dont know why i feel guilty but i do.
maybe i was too young.
maybe i wish it didnt have to happen that way.
maybe its my dads birthday and i miss him.
and i dont know how to deal with things at all.
but i have come a long way.