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im tired of being a woman in a little girls body.
im not twelve years old, im GROWN UP FOR GODS SAKE.
i should not be this size. even extra smalls are too big, and i had to buy a double zero pair of pants today. i want to kill myself.
im trying to prove myself, and be ambitious, and mature, and accomplish things, but i look like a goddamn pipsqueak.
I wouldnt take me seriously.
maybe im shrinking. it feels like it, and as usual it seems fitting to how ive been feeling lately.
i cant wait to have a baby, and get some hips. that'll be the day. and i know ill eat those words when im forty.
but ill remember feeling this way too.
anyway, im doing my internship and thats going well. im grateful for it. and im designing and creating a wedding dress for my very first client, who is a great woman getting married in mexico in december. grateful for it , (her) giving me a chance to prove myself also.
and as it has been for a while, the countdown is on, only five more months to go. and then ill be done,
AND ILL HAVE A BACHELORS DEGREEEEE!!!!! and can get a real job. whew.
im not twelve years old, im GROWN UP FOR GODS SAKE.
i should not be this size. even extra smalls are too big, and i had to buy a double zero pair of pants today. i want to kill myself.
im trying to prove myself, and be ambitious, and mature, and accomplish things, but i look like a goddamn pipsqueak.
I wouldnt take me seriously.
maybe im shrinking. it feels like it, and as usual it seems fitting to how ive been feeling lately.
i cant wait to have a baby, and get some hips. that'll be the day. and i know ill eat those words when im forty.
but ill remember feeling this way too.
anyway, im doing my internship and thats going well. im grateful for it. and im designing and creating a wedding dress for my very first client, who is a great woman getting married in mexico in december. grateful for it , (her) giving me a chance to prove myself also.
and as it has been for a while, the countdown is on, only five more months to go. and then ill be done,
AND ILL HAVE A BACHELORS DEGREEEEE!!!!! and can get a real job. whew.