last night was good-- breaking the rules... today compensated however
i've never heard my mom cry like this before.
goddamnit.
i threatened to kill her today.
i didn't feel like doing ANYTHING but sleeping forever-- another one of those days.
she told me to get up, take my medicine, she screamed at me to smile even if it's fake, she yelled at me saying she was "tired of [me] thinking [I] can do whatever [i] want, wherever [i] want, whenever [i] damn well please". she said she was angry at me for "not even trying to get better", and that she wouldn't tolerate it any longer.
so she yelled at me for half an hour and made me sit down after i told her (with a smile on my face) not to make me kill her.
then we went to the fucking ER again and waited for 5 fucking hours..
but we didn't even get to see a fucking physician... so we left.
mom's been so patience-less. but i can't blame her.
i need to be out in the family room with michael. dad's comforting mom while she's crying upstairs. i've never heard this before. dad says it's because of the tension-- that it's not my fault..
he told me to not even bother with any homework.
i feel awful. why do i have to put people through all this trouble? it's not my fault it's not my fault but i know i certainly didn't help the situation.
Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day everyone.
goddamnit.
i threatened to kill her today.
i didn't feel like doing ANYTHING but sleeping forever-- another one of those days.
she told me to get up, take my medicine, she screamed at me to smile even if it's fake, she yelled at me saying she was "tired of [me] thinking [I] can do whatever [i] want, wherever [i] want, whenever [i] damn well please". she said she was angry at me for "not even trying to get better", and that she wouldn't tolerate it any longer.
so she yelled at me for half an hour and made me sit down after i told her (with a smile on my face) not to make me kill her.
then we went to the fucking ER again and waited for 5 fucking hours..
but we didn't even get to see a fucking physician... so we left.
mom's been so patience-less. but i can't blame her.
i need to be out in the family room with michael. dad's comforting mom while she's crying upstairs. i've never heard this before. dad says it's because of the tension-- that it's not my fault..
he told me to not even bother with any homework.
i feel awful. why do i have to put people through all this trouble? it's not my fault it's not my fault but i know i certainly didn't help the situation.
Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day everyone.